Moodyb's posts
Posted in Mad Tea Party: Hangout and Raffle
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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@totalanimefan: hello, how are you?
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@totalanimefan: hello, how are you?
Posted in Mad Tea Party: Hangout and Raffle
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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hello, greetings everyone
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hello, greetings everyone
Posted in I feel so iscolated
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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@Rebirth: its just hard since my sister is my best friend
and tells me i can talk to her about anything but i feel like this topic i can't.
Because we probably have different views on it. Not that different views is bad, and she is nice
but when someone has different views in this religion my family tends to go "You must be stupid if you can't see the truth."
Mostly my grandma and father are like that and i don't really like that kind of attitude.
With moving, I honestly have nowhere to go or skills really.
and i always wanted to live with my sister but now i just have no idea what to do as far as my life goes.
Moving out on my own terrifies me as i have severe separation anxiety. Being in an unfamiliar place with no one I know just scares me.
Aww thank you very much.
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@Rebirth: its just hard since my sister is my best friend
and tells me i can talk to her about anything but i feel like this topic i can't.
Because we probably have different views on it. Not that different views is bad, and she is nice
but when someone has different views in this religion my family tends to go "You must be stupid if you can't see the truth."
Mostly my grandma and father are like that and i don't really like that kind of attitude.
With moving, I honestly have nowhere to go or skills really.
and i always wanted to live with my sister but now i just have no idea what to do as far as my life goes.
Moving out on my own terrifies me as i have severe separation anxiety. Being in an unfamiliar place with no one I know just scares me.
Aww thank you very much.
Posted in I feel so iscolated
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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First and foremost, I'm not actually talking about situation with COVID-19.
My family is pretty religious, mostly my grandmother and father.
But lately i feel there has been a rift between my sister and I. And it's lately been taxing mentally.
Mostly because she seems to enjoy the religious stuff but it's very hard on me to take in that stuff mentally, which of course no one understands or tries to understand.
I have depression, 2 types of anxiety and a very high possibility of ADHD.
I am not against or hating on the religion stuff. As I understand why they got into it since my mother had a stroke 10 years ago
and it hasn't made life great for the past 10 or 11 years. And currently she is terminally ill with dementia but, I feel like a freak and the only one who can't agree with it and the stuff my dad and my grandma teach me about it and more and more i feel like I have to eventually leave on my own. And of course I feel there is something wrong with me because i can't get into it but a lot of my family members can. Including one or two of my cousins.
When they talk about the future stuff their religion teaches them, it very much stresses me out, but i can't really say "don't talk about it" because it means a lot to them and gives them hope for the future.
They talk about the world nowadays so depressingly, that i have 0 hope in anything. And i understand that life now is very hard and depressing but it's making it very hard for me to even bother study art like I want to in order to get better. It makes it feel like anything I do is pointless. including my art business im trying to build up. The smallest of things i feel instant guilt for because I know it's against what they believe in. I feel i can barely function at times on my own.
At this point i feel i have to pretend i agree with everything when i don't.
But moving out alone terrifies me but it might just be something I have to do.
Because my mental health is not in a good place at all.
And overall it makes me feel, if i don't say yes, im stupid, or evil/a bad person.
and often i will get guilted by them[mostly my dad or grandma] using my mother to get me into it.
And that makes me feel...even worse.
I'm not really here posting here to get advice, or to get attention. It's more so just need to let me feelings out i suppose and kinda
let people know why I sometimes don't post a lot, don't make art a whole lot, etc.
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First and foremost, I'm not actually talking about situation with COVID-19.
My family is pretty religious, mostly my grandmother and father.
But lately i feel there has been a rift between my sister and I. And it's lately been taxing mentally.
Mostly because she seems to enjoy the religious stuff but it's very hard on me to take in that stuff mentally, which of course no one understands or tries to understand.
I have depression, 2 types of anxiety and a very high possibility of ADHD.
I am not against or hating on the religion stuff. As I understand why they got into it since my mother had a stroke 10 years ago
and it hasn't made life great for the past 10 or 11 years. And currently she is terminally ill with dementia but, I feel like a freak and the only one who can't agree with it and the stuff my dad and my grandma teach me about it and more and more i feel like I have to eventually leave on my own. And of course I feel there is something wrong with me because i can't get into it but a lot of my family members can. Including one or two of my cousins.
When they talk about the future stuff their religion teaches them, it very much stresses me out, but i can't really say "don't talk about it" because it means a lot to them and gives them hope for the future.
They talk about the world nowadays so depressingly, that i have 0 hope in anything. And i understand that life now is very hard and depressing but it's making it very hard for me to even bother study art like I want to in order to get better. It makes it feel like anything I do is pointless. including my art business im trying to build up. The smallest of things i feel instant guilt for because I know it's against what they believe in. I feel i can barely function at times on my own.
At this point i feel i have to pretend i agree with everything when i don't.
But moving out alone terrifies me but it might just be something I have to do.
Because my mental health is not in a good place at all.
And overall it makes me feel, if i don't say yes, im stupid, or evil/a bad person.
and often i will get guilted by them[mostly my dad or grandma] using my mother to get me into it.
And that makes me feel...even worse.
I'm not really here posting here to get advice, or to get attention. It's more so just need to let me feelings out i suppose and kinda
let people know why I sometimes don't post a lot, don't make art a whole lot, etc.
Posted in Discovering Voltra
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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before it was launched i kinda just googled avatar sites or upcoming avatar sites
and i found voltra's page on FB.
eventually found out about what discord was and joined their discord and was there for quite some time.
in the beginning i was not in a good place at all.
but more recently i've been in a better place and enjoying voltra better as 2017-2019
were really hard years for me mentally.
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before it was launched i kinda just googled avatar sites or upcoming avatar sites
and i found voltra's page on FB.
eventually found out about what discord was and joined their discord and was there for quite some time.
in the beginning i was not in a good place at all.
but more recently i've been in a better place and enjoying voltra better as 2017-2019
were really hard years for me mentally.
Posted in Moody's Spoopy free art |Mystery Dice roll
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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I bought it recently so i can sit at it, fix posture cause before
my chair messed up my back.
and now yoga ball feels good and much better for me. it does hurt upper back to my neck but only since it's very new.
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I bought it recently so i can sit at it, fix posture cause before
my chair messed up my back.
and now yoga ball feels good and much better for me. it does hurt upper back to my neck but only since it's very new.
Posted in Moody's Spoopy free art |Mystery Dice roll
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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@Shadami: I sat at my yoga ball today for a bit longer
than normal and that helped a lot.
I've had a lot of fatigue which made me stay in bed so feeling a lot better today.
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@Shadami: I sat at my yoga ball today for a bit longer
than normal and that helped a lot.
I've had a lot of fatigue which made me stay in bed so feeling a lot better today.
Posted in Moody's Spoopy free art |Mystery Dice roll
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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So sorry i've been a little slow on art, i've had some severe back pain.
but i's feeling better today so going to get art done.
Also second number has not yet been chosen, so you all can still roll dice.
//forgot to pick the number
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So sorry i've been a little slow on art, i've had some severe back pain.
but i's feeling better today so going to get art done.
Also second number has not yet been chosen, so you all can still roll dice.
//forgot to pick the number
Posted in My Dumb Butt
Posted 4 years ago
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@blinkini: Nope. I'm still on Day 01.
Mental health has gone to ruins as of late so i can't focus clearly.
It's almost done but hands i still suck at so it's not my favorite part.
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@blinkini: Nope. I'm still on Day 01.
Mental health has gone to ruins as of late so i can't focus clearly.
It's almost done but hands i still suck at so it's not my favorite part.
Posted in Moody's Spoopy free art |Mystery Dice roll
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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@squishy sloth: as okay as I can be lol.
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@squishy sloth: as okay as I can be lol.
Posted in What did you do on Halloween?
Posted 4 years ago
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@Jolly: yup. first year doing it.
im super slow cause not good at anatomy yet.
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@Jolly: yup. first year doing it.
im super slow cause not good at anatomy yet.
Posted in What did you do on Halloween?
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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i think i watched attack on titan season 1
and drew my first entry for Huevember.
//has a really bad memory
granted im also still not finished with my first post for Huevember. :vanora_sweat:
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i think i watched attack on titan season 1
and drew my first entry for Huevember.
//has a really bad memory
granted im also still not finished with my first post for Huevember. :vanora_sweat:
Posted in Moody's Spoopy free art |Mystery Dice roll
Posted 4 years ago
『 Moody Says. . .』
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@littlewhitedragonlet: most people don't use them cause you can do shortcut keys
on laptop.
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@littlewhitedragonlet: most people don't use them cause you can do shortcut keys
on laptop.
Posted in into the night | a hang
Posted 4 years ago
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@Deaa: that is good to hear.
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@Deaa: that is good to hear.