Rei Ann's posts

@MoodyB: That's a wise plan. I got to do another pull and got another xioaling. At this point I don't think im lucky.

@Kory: Well he didn't directly ask it, it was more like a sharing session? It's hard to explain, but I get why you'd feel that way. I don't go, because when I did family sessions with my mom, she would convince them, I was a lying little devil child, and my father used to throw in into mental hospitals as a kid if I had a tantrum when I lived with him. So trust issues when it comes to medical staff, so a dyi class like that helps me more, because I know I won't betray me? But that's getting a bit deep for me to share.

Oh I agree on roleplaying. I used to roleplay on neopets back in the day. I had an OC for Zoids and old anime, named Clover. But when I was little 90% of my characters were named Clover, Mel or Ella. I was so bad at names back then.

Well as a little one, on neopets, and then gaia, I would look for slash or yaoi roleplays it was glad. It was rare to find them, but I did. I also had my far share of mxf roleplays, but I never went R rated. Now my friends irl and I use to roleplay over the phones or in notebook back in highschool, and I'll admit I did have a R rated book with my guy friend, that I use to crush on. Looking back on that, the "friendship" was super wrong, and I didn't realize it then, but he def tried to get me to have relations with him, but not date me. -shudders- But now you have the chance to find rps that are fun, and enjoyable for you.

See we've both learned something from our roleplaying style. I do think our roleplaying prefences are a great match, I say we make a good team.

Yeah, it's an option under, goes and checks, so you go to settings, and then click on your blog title, and you'll be on the edit appearance page, and there is a part called Ask, under the ask page title, it says allow anoy questions, and it should be blue, click on it and it'll turn gray, hit save and bam all done.

Yes, I do make amvs, mostly disney when I get in the mood, but I don't do it that often anymore due to low free time. I'm also not that great at it.

@MoodyB: That's a good plan. I'm about 60 gems away from a pull.

@MoodyB: Genshin sounds great distraction. Did you mange to pull any characters you wanted from the banner, since the last pull?

@Kory: Well I wouldn't recommend the class for most people. He made us talk about our issues in class and it was apart of our grade. Now of course no onw has to get into the deep deep stuff, but for you, I don't think you'd enjoy that. Beside family therapy and this class I haven't spoke to a therapist as just by myself. I got some trauma on that. My bestie and MOH she goes once a week, and like shares what it's like with me, and like you she's not the best at doing her threaphy homework, but like I tell her, that as long as she keeps working towards it's okay.

Yeah, well I love roleplaying, and so I get not wanting to make it super dark.

So I do roleplay M x M stories, but I've always tended to play the more submissive one. While I do identify as a woman, I identify as a Rei more. So while I've not used rping to explore gender, I know a friend of mine has done it, and to explore her sexuality without getting R rated. To each their own, and well I love creating diverse stories, ya know when I was 10 through highschool, most of my roleplays used to be MxM, and it's funny, because back then, it was really hard to find roleplays like that, and now I lean more MxF, but really I just want to roleplay my ships. Man it's been ages, since I've done a Drarry rp.

It could be that, or maybe it's allowed you to play your inner self? As a kid, I've always had to be in charge, be in power, be the adult. I like getting to play the softer side, where no one expects me to be the grown up. While my mom had good moments, she was a really really really bad mom, and I raised my siblings from age 7 and up, long dramatic story and it feels odd to speak ill of the dead, so maybe for me roleplaying as girls or the bottom male, allowed me the chance to be weaker and not have to be the strong, always in charge person? It's a idea to explore in my self reflection time, I will have to notate that for later.

Well for the rp, I really love the Nicole post I just did. I can feel a little dark side Nicole happening. Odin's in trouble, lol.

Well you know on tumblr, you can turn anon off, and post and not get hate. Now you don't have to post either. I used to use it to share theses. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NkHehwbaYG4

I couldn't figure out the youtube code.

@MoodyB: I get that. Seeing someone you love like that, it just sucks. Are you at least getitng some recharge time tonight after the day?

@Kory: I can understand that. When I was in college, I took a pysch class that was basically us writing about our trauma and stuff, using key words from the textbook, but it was basically therapy I paid to take with everyone. It was a very strange class now that I think about it. So I find that writing stuff like that helps me work through things, but I can also see not wanting to put it in something you find fun to do.

I use to write really emo poems, when I was depressed and let me tell you I can't reread them. I know I have the books in my basement storage, but I can't don't want to revisit that part of me.

Well there no shame in liking roleplaying as a man more, you know you could use that to explore to other sides of gender. I know some people to, like even if they write it just as a story for themselves, to try out if hey maybe I feel more at place as this. At least some friends I know have done it. Not sure if it would work for everyone. I could get not wanting to share that stuff.

I also think that being the bad guy can be a little fun. I can't wait for our rp to get futher along, because I want our duo to crush Odin. Muwahaha

Well that would explain why you saw all of that stuff. I've only ever used tumblr to look at fandom stuff. I am a huge nerd in some aspects. But to be honsent a lot of tumblr community loves to be a troll and a bully. People love to send lots of anon hate, but I avoid the toxic parts, and use my block if I have to.

@MoodyB: That I find can be the worse. I don't want to say a bunch of stuff that might upset you, but I found it to be the worst when me and my siblings saw our mom.

The rest of the night went by in a blur for Dorothea. If she was asked years from now what she had done that night she wouldn't remember. It was truly an unremarkable night. At some point she had gone to bed and arose the next day before mornings light. She frowned not wanting to sneak out of the house, but knew that if she didn't a certain sun god would be smiting some people today. Then again at least he'd be doing something. Pushing away the anger she felt at that situation, she needed to focus on getting ready for the day. Unlike when her mother forced her into her best outfit and did her hair, she went the simply venture. A simple blue chiton*, and she left her hair down. She didn't care to impress him, and wasn't going ages trying to pick her best outfit as other girls might do, if they were meeting him. She grabbed his harp and knew it was time to leave.

Once she was properly clothed she tip toed across the house. When she made it to the door she opened it slowly and shut it quietly. She was actually surprised that her parents were both still sleeping. Dorothea had expected that one of them might be waiting for her to try and keep her there. It seemed that they were too trust of their daughter and expected her to just follow their wishes. It was almost funny, but really the more she pondered the thought, the more she realized that like Aristide she was also refusing to due her duty. Of course she resented that comparison in her mind, because her refusing to meet suitors or get married didn't cause an entire village to die. It was confusing to relate to his own struggles, but also be angry at the position he had forced her into by his in action.

She shook of her thoughts as she realized she couldn't just stand outside her house pondering the whole Aristide situation. While she would have loved to have a morning meal, she knew that she didn't have time for that or time to try and forage for something to eat. Instead she made her way to the temple and it's forest. She wasn't sure where she might call him from, but she eventually found a nice well hidden spot near the temple. No river today, and by the time she had found the spot, the sun had risen. Deciding that she didn't want to bother with the fuss of trying to figure out where to sit, she took a seat on the ground, in front of a tree. She had her back pressed against the tree, and placed his harp in her lap. Taking a deep breath, and steeling her nerves she plucked a string on the harp.

It was almost funny how quickly he appeared. It made her wonder if he was alone and that was why he could come so quickly. Though she could picture him surrounded by gods and just like running off midsentence. Anything to avoid work right? "Morning.." She might have added his name to her greeting, but well she couldn't dare call him by name could she? She had dared to do a lot of outrageous things, but calling him by his name felt too wrong or maybe to intimate. She was suppose to be angry at him, for this situation, not making buddy buddy with him. She'd have to do well to remember that to. She looked at him like he was crazy when he asked why she changed her clothing. Was he kidding? Was this some odd joke? " No, changing clothing isn't so suitors, it because our clothing gets dirt and gross. We can't just wave a hand and be clean and fresh smelling."

She didn't expect him to ask her how her night had been. She briefly considered answering him honestly for a moment. To tell him it was terrible, because of his laziness and refusal to take care of anyone. It would be almost refreshing to go back to screaming at him. It would get rid of this uneasy feeling within her, but well it was pointless to do so. He had already told her what he thought of her kind. Dorothea didn't even come to see him because she wanted to, he had threaten his parents, and while yes they would die soon because of his inaction, her whole plan these last few years was prolonging their lives. " It was fine. " It was a lie, but a simple lie. It wasn't like he really wanted to know, because seconds later he was demanding a song for her.

What, was she a bird? No of course she wasn't a bird, if she was she'd be in better health. He cared about animals, not about humans. She looked bitter for a moment before letting her expression fall blank. Fine, she'd sing like she'd promise, but she wouldn't be happy or sad about it. She'd would ware a blank, almost lifeless expression while she did it. It was what he wanted from humans after all, he wanted them all lifeless as some petty revenge because he was a god and he didn't want to be. She took in a deep breath, before she starting singing her song of longing for freedom and peace. It was as if she was serenading all she would know to never be hers. A sad longing song.

@MoodyB: I'm sorry that today was a hard day, but I am glad you got the chance to see her today.

@Kory: Well I find that sometimes writing characters with some similar things I went through, is very very helpful for me for working through things. Of course I never getting like super graphic because it could trigger others or myself. I don't like gore or over sexual shows so I tend to keep my writing that way as well. Oh yeah, if I had to roleplay like that in the Loki on you are describing, I would feel super icky. I'm glad my vaugeness helps keep things from being triggering.

Well I've never really ran into triggering stuff, but I knew some years ago 4chan was going crazy doing triggering things in tags.

Hey Key!

@MoodyB: Oh jeeze. Well at least she got the better version of covid to get, where one doesn't get sick.

@Kory: Yay!

Well for me my characters have some reflection's of me, but feel like there own little person. Sometimes I swear it's like the jump out of my head and write the post them selves. Though I've been roleplaying and making characters and stories for 23 years. ever since i was a kid, and use to play harry potter with friends in the neighborhood. I had a OC that was ron's twin, so original right? lol. Well I would never want to trig you, and I don't write characters who have grahpic abuse in that kind of form. I sometimes, have characters who were abused as a kid, as that is some stuff as a kid I went through, but it's always from a parent, and mostly emotional, but I tend to make it vauge, as in like with nicole to avoid triggers.

Yeah, it's what for a while I used ekit on tumblr. Now I just use my tumblr for sims 4 stuff, or posting either video I made or sims custom content.

@Kory: That is a very simple yummy meal.

Yeah, I don't really do graphic roleplays like that. I've always been a more hint at it, fade to black kinda of person. Like I did once or twice on tumblr, back in my college day with someone I had roleplayed with for years. Cause while it's still online, it still feels to imitate of a thing to just do.

I did like tumblr rping, for the easy fact of you can add gif response, but I did it back in the day before the staff made changes to how replies to a post where done. I stopped using my rp blog ages ago.