Kaderin Triste's posts

@Dread Pirate: ...so maybe I'm faking being dead. So what? It's a game!
Stop ruining my fun, damnit!
:vanora_huff:

....maybe I have and maybe I haven't....
>.>

@Dread Pirate: Aw snap! Now I am curious...

@Dread Pirate: I dunno...can you?
XD

@Dread Pirate: I wanna be indignant and go "SOUL WOULD NEVER!" but I don't really think I'm far enough into the series to be so confident...
XD

MINE DOES THAT TOO!
I thought I was seriously the only one who had that issue! Initially I thought that maybe he was managing to pee on his toys without peeing on anything else and I was concerned, but then I found a mouse toy in the toilet one morning and was able to put 2 and 2 together.
XD

*wanders in and dies because what's a good blackout without a murder mystery?*

Yeah, my family was more the "depression is a made up ailment that people claim they have so they can get doped up on drugs" type. So I have never felt like I could even have a theoretical discussion about depression with any of them without them getting all judgemental. But I had been cutting off and on, like when I was really bad and just wanted to be able to feel something, anything I would cut. Sort of. Actually, I would take a pin or thumbtack and just scratch myself over and over until it would bleed because I figured it probably physically hurt more than just cutting with a blade would. And then I would pick the scabs over and over until it would scar. Most of them have faded enough to barely be visible except for my "sucide" cuts that I did down my forearms. But I have not been that bad since around 2010. Part of which was finding a few really good friends and partly now I have cats who, while they don't prevent my issues, they give me the love and affection and just generally give me a reason to get up each day. And because I have not been that bad, I am at least partially covering my scars with tattoos, just symbols really, but they hold meaning. I have the one on my right done, but the one on my left probably won't be done until possibly this spring/summer or maybe next year depending on a few factors.
Ah, but now I'm rambling.

tl;dr: Family can really suck, but I'm better than I used to be and have furry support babies that I am eternally thankful that I have.

I work only one of my jobs that day....so I'll probably give my furry kitty Valentine's lots of snuggles and kisses, then go to work, and then maybe order myself pizza for dinner as a special treat since a lot of pizza places have silly valentine's deals.
Or maybe just will buy a good frozen pizza or something and some candy for myself. Idk really yet.
Oh, and I do have to grab something to give the one friend I work with because he's always nice so I owe him....a chai tea probably. At the very least.

@mdom: I don't remember which year exactly, but I think it was either 2006 or 2007...but like, posting or chatting in the npc event threads would win you a sort of collector card art thing of them for Valentine's day. It was really cool.

@Unicorn: Yeah, I joined around 2006 I think. And it was really cool then, but it kind of fell apart in my 2009-ish to 2012 hiatus, so I sold all my items, which despite earning me over 5mil gold, still wasn't enough to buy good art thanks to their inflation over the years.

@Unicorn: Apparently you missed my feeble attempt at an over-dramatic humorous post...

1. Uh, woke up feeling almost okay (even though I started to feel blah almost immediately)
2. Coworker brought her pup into work this evening.
3. Got to talk about a few of the projects I'm making.
4. Met someone online who didn't make me feel like shit about my undiagnosed mental issues.
5. Printing some stitch patterns off at work before I leave. (have a lot more I want, but these should keep me occupied and give me a good variety to work on for a while)

You make a lot of good points there. It's good to have someone who understands.

Yeah, I just feel like almost a fake if I say I have something that hasn't been given an official diagnosis even if I display 99-100% of the symptoms. Especially since so many people I've experienced in the past who have it were the "if you haven't been officially diagnosed, it doesn't count and you're just doing it for the attention" type people.