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@Wildfire: im okay, very tired tho.
It's supposed to be 90 Degrees.

but doing okay other than that.
how are you??
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hello, greetings everyone
Posted in Gartic Phone Posted 3 years ago
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a streamer i watch played it when she reached partner
and it was so fun to watch.
I wish i could've participated but my laptop does not know the definition of multitasking LOL
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@Wildfire: I hope so.
but since i am focusing on painting and improving my work, that's what im aiming for.
im not quite good at it yet but i practiced it on an old piece
so now i want to continue my fruit series in this semi painterly style as well as my breakfast series i need to start.

i had to start using a separate program just for my digital painting as it has the texture and brushes i liked.
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@Wildfire: yessss!
she talks about wanting to try watercolors so if i earn enough eventually
i plan to get us both some.

my sketchbook i bought a while back is just for sketching so i'd need to get a mixed media one.
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@Wildfire: she doesnt have any hobbies and often is too scared to do art so i want to help her with it and just her see its fun and it doesnt need to be good.
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@Wildfire: yeah he's been really supportive.
but his gam was never supportive of the stuff he liked either so he understands.

yeah i understand thst.
somehow her's seemed more..degrading and her fam often treats mine not great.

yeah me too! i may also try to get her some watetcolors.
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@Wildfire: my dad was so so so sweet to me last night.
he knows art is like my life. so when my sister asked "what do you call moody's tablet"

he said tool [my aunt refered to it as toy...].
and said if she persists to bother me i tell him.

so it was really nice of him to say.

its okay.
now their blocked and i feel i can post more freely.

it really is! i wanted to buy a bunch of smoll ones lol.
i might also invest in gouache and a sketchbook so my sister can paint with me
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@Wildfire: Yeah. there is so much toxic stuff my family has done.
especially directly toward my family. and my dad 100% agrees and gave me full permission to even block them LOL.

One thing my aunt does not get is BOUNDARIES.
I was setting them just by removing them but she never...reads the room so to speak...
she even used my IRL on my IG which only 2 people know. and that just...kinda seemed really uncomfortable.
since my IG nowhere my name is on for a reason. She doesn't seem to care to know what is a no-no on my IG page.

so yeah im setting boundaries. plus not like they actually visit us[before pandemic]. she'll come down to our town twice a year if she feels like it. so im just kind of...over associating with a lot of them.

Yeah i think that would help when i am unable to draw or paint due to overcome by anxiety.
I was going to buy some play-doh. which sounds silly. but it may help keep my hands busy as well as my mind.
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@Wildfire: my sister and i think i should remove her again and then just go private for a while.

main reason i dont want her on my ig other than down playing digital artists is i dont want her showing my work to other family members at the get together. sounds weird but most of my family as you know now are kind of..jerky lol

i should invest on fidget toys or slime.
people say it helps with adhd often.
right now its just playing genshin XD
or teaching myself to paint digitally
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@Wildfire: its stressing me out to no end.and also having anxiety.
like my relatives have 0 boundaries.

so thats most of my stress for this week lol.
i tried deleting my aunt off my ig too but then she just found it again. so idk what to do.

i dont want her on it since she talks down to me a lot and doesnt really see digital art as more than a hobby.
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@Wildfire: yeah. she thinks everyone wants to see us but in reality they'll talk to us for...5 seconds and ignore us for the majority of the time. so i dont really want to go for many reasons.

tho i really dont want to be near my grandpa who teases me to the point of bullying and thinks he's hilarious. it makes me so uncomfortable to get criticized at every get together about my clothes and or body.
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@Wildfire: too much honestly. lol.
But my family are supposed to have a get together in beginning of June?? i think.
to celebrate my cousin's one year anniversary and renew their vows i guess??
but i told my grandma we can't attend because my sister and I are not vaccinated yet[my sister might be getting her's this friday]
but my grandma got in a bit of a tiff because of it.

Like kept pressuring us to think about it. Wanted us to ride in the same car as her and her husband[not vaccinated]
and i felt unsafe to do that.
because it does take a few weeks for the vaccine to take affect. and i didn't want to risk anything.
What my relatives aren't getting is my family's immune systems are quite low. so we're more at risk for the virus.

so she kept trying to text us to think about it. and even tried to text my dad to convince us to go[he doesn't want to go either].
and another factor is...by the time we get home, it'll be maybe 8pm.
and my dad doesn't want to stay out super late because the next day he has service on zoom with his congration.

she eventually took an O.K. but like...she hasn't even tried to talk or text us or anything.
so she's probably still bitter over us not going.
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@Wildfire: mostly been stressed so that's why i say for the most part lol.
have not been having a great time this week.