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Millet

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Millet, spilling the tea:

I'm in one of those weird modes where good things are happening- but bad things had
happened for so long that I cant seem to enjoy the highs of positivity.
I'm in the midst of packing to move, and I'm so very looking forward to less stress coming
with this move-but it doesn't feel real yet. probably because packing sucks. fuck packing.

In November we are doubling the square footage of our office and drawing up the floor plans
now to go over budget with contractors. This is amazing and going to help SO much...and
we would never be able to do this if not for having a loyal and wonderful client base....
but I just can't get excited for it, for whatever reason.

I presume I'm just too busy and in work mode constantly that I can't de-stress enough to
feel good about my future de-stressing lol.

We need a vacation so bad, my brain is a scrambled mess.

Uncledaddy

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I am extremely fucking angry, all the time. I just can't do or say anything about it at all, which makes it 10x worse. Sometimes I worry that I'm bound to snap any day now and do something silly. But until then, :^).

AKA Count Trashula

Kozi

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I don't even care if something goes horribly wrong at this point.
I just. don't. care.

At least something would be happening.
Instead of all of this endless, pointless. nothing.

sunny

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i am almost losing the fight.

currently: new novel who dis?

q u e s t i n g :
beanie doll! thank u cookie

Thrills

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I almost cheated on my boyfriend. I wanted to. He wont touch me because he is so depressed. and i feel even worse for being annoyed with how distant he is being because of his depression.

i was way too close to cheating on him with my ex boyfriend. And i dont know if i should tell him. nothing actually happened, but i wanted to.

i am a pile of shit.

Kozi

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My heart hasn’t felt this bad in a while.

I thought four days off would be long enough for it to stop feeling like crap, but I guess not... :/

Lithium

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I don’t know how to navigate through losing you.
I don’t know how to grieve when everyone else is treating me like I am the new you- the person everyone dumps their shit on.
How did you do it? I’m not going to do it.
I’m grieving, I’m hurting too!
To heck with them honestly.
Nobody talks to me
Nobody acknowledges me
You died but I became a f***ing ghost.

Foever in my heart
Spookums 11/25/18

Angus 6/23/19

Mom 6/29/19

Dad 11/29/2021

Tsundererra

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TSUN ★ TSUN ★ TSUN (≖︿≖✿)

Not sure why, but each time I go talk to a therapist, I feel worse than I did before I went. ): This new therapist makes me feel a bit anxious because she is ignoring my past diagnosis of a personality disorder and trying to say it’s a mood disorder based on the first 5 minutes of us meeting... I can tell she wants to throw meds at me even though I said I don’t want any...

(✿ ♡‿♡) DERE ★ DERE ★ DERE

Kozi

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My rainbow is fading.
I try so hard to keep shining, for those who need me.
I hope I can get out of here while there is enough left of me to save.

Oh my love, I know you are my candyman
And oh my love, let us fly to bounty land~~

Közi (“Kouji.”)
He/him

Aradia

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wow i hate being codependent and i hate having all my close relationships and friendships be codependent and god. goooood. i wish i was done with this shit but as soon as i break free from this one, i'll be left spinning adrift in space until i latch onto, fucking surprise, another codependent relationship. i really fucking suck! why do i keep trying to mother people, when i don't even know what that means, because my own mother might as well have not existed for all the crap and neglect she put me through. people take advantage of my desire to want to help them and be there for them. but at what cost? this latest one has been pushing me towards a psychotic breakdown and he makes me worry so much, then tells me i couldn't make a difference anyway, others have tried. how could i believe i would be different then? why do you want me to stay? i told you i couldn't fuck with this anymore! if you won't let me talk about how much you're hurting me and making my guilt and shame worse, then just let me break things off lmao fuck you

Seionshi

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Hachi

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I feel like I'm living at 10x speed. the days pass by and I can't keep up. it's like going into your fridge to grab some milk you bought yesterday, only to find out it's expired because you actually bought it 3 weeks ago. I have this deeply-rooted feeling that time is running out, and it makes me anxious, and stressed, and scared...

Luc

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goddamn im dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb
I really don't want to go to work tomorrow or the whole of the week honestly. I wanna quit and go elsewhere but where? My cv is dumb and i have nothing of note, and my parents gonna say well why are you leaving this job if youre just gonna sit around doing fuck all at home all the time like before but hhhh i cant go back to uni to finish my degree i cant do it i think ill break again, hnng

Is it bad that sometimes i think about a death in the family happening and i use that as my excuse to quit work because i dont wanna go back
Why am i here
Its not even a bad job i guess its just i dont like it i dont want to go back please dont make me go back i want to go home but home stopped being home when time moved on hnng i dont want to live here anymore but i have no money where the fuck am i supposed to go i dont want to be here anymore i love my mother more when im away from her there's too many dogs here and people ask me to do things and i can never say no and i hate it and some people don't even say please or thank you when i offer something like please that hurts like i was being nice and youre taking me for granted

Hnng have i really become so dependent on my friend, havent seen her in two/three weeks and this is what im reduced to?
Pathetic little shit huh why am i still in this town i cant even leave the fucking country coz home affairs dont wanna renew me a dumb fucking passport

I want to go home

inatlaka

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I miss you so much but I cannot tell you to your face because no matter what I do you will never accept me and my family. I will forever love you from afar... I love you mommy.

Hachi

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can't sleep. I feel like screaming. why am I so helpless..........

Hachi

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you ever have one of those dreams that's so specific you know exactly what your subconscious is trying to tell you?

awful dream, I'm.... like really disturbed holy shit
I didn't need that imagery but I'm never gonna forget it now huh
I need to make this right but I don't know how...

inatlaka

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I confess I feel happier ever since I cut you out of my life.

skettiyeti

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I don't know if this counts as a confession really but like I'm in a really weird place mentally and physically.
I've been losing weight pretty well since about late May. I had lost about 30 lbs, mostly thanks to an appetite suppressant I was taking.
I was also eating really well, and a lot less. Like I wasn't annoyingly snack-ish all through the day. I had to stop taking it because
I needed to take a different medication for something unrelated and it was reacting. Plus, it probably wasn't good to take it for that long anyway.
I've fallen back into some bad eating patterns. Mostly because I haven't been able to afford healthier food. But also just snacking more. I gained back like 5 lbs. Which doesn't sound that bad when I type it, but it makes me feel really shitty. Plus I am just feeling bloated. Like I am acutely aware of my stomach at all times. I have been meaning to exercise more, but I've only been able to get myself to go on like one bike ride a week. Other days I am just too tired and can't muster the energy. I guess it is better than nothing but there was a time when I was at least doing 3 times a week. I need to get back into my patterns. Not to sound like a druggie but I severely miss not being so damn hungry all the time. It was so nice just like, not thinking about food as much. I was hoping the habits would last after I stopped the medicine.

Tsundererra

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TSUN ★ TSUN ★ TSUN (≖︿≖✿)

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The truth behind Reaping Ritual 2019

Art by the rightful Mayor, Kiwi

inatlaka

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I keep having nightmares of you. You are always chasing and attacking me. I wonder why I dream of you this way. It scares me. I wake up missing the good parts of you. I force myself to remember exactly why I cut you off for good. My mind misses you. I hate this feeling.

°<°art by Keturah🖤🦖🖤

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