Amity's posts

In a year I’ll look back on this time in my life and be proud of myself. I already am.

Hiding in the cooler for the cold not in spite of it lmao.

God!!!! Ahhhhhh!!!!
Things will be okay. They will be.

Doing better right now. Have half a plan for studying up.

Ohhhhh I’m tired and stressed though but that’s okay.

“Living normally while life is not normal” exactly. It’s hard!!

Oh I sure do fill my head with nonsense. Trying to imagine what the meeting will be like and what they might say. It’s pointless. I have no idea what the future holds and that’s okay. I’m not supposed to.

https://tpr.fmcsa.dot.gov/Search

Looks like there are online options. Need to see if that qualifies me or what.

Need to study the book this week and this weekend get my application in and a meeting with the college set up.

Really need to get on doing that daily and studying the hell out of that so I can get my permit. Need to learn how to do the entry level driver training too. No idea what that’s about at this point.

Did one of the quizzes on the cdl thing and I’m like damn I don’t remember any of this lmao. Need to study the questions and see about highlighting them in the book for reference or something. Make me a little study guide I can bring into work and look at during breaks and when cleaning. Quiz myself on it.

I’m glad at least that I have to e ability to get numb to the nonsense now. Instead of just having my brain on fire all the time

I hate having a photographic memory and seeing every stranger as a threat so every stupid asinine interaction is just burned into my brain lmao

But once I do it it’ll be real and I’ll be happy and free of a job that makes me miserable every second I’m there!!

Today I gotta wash my pipe so I can put everything away. And I gotta really study that book.

This weekend I’ll get in my application so we can actually start the process and see how it goes. I sure am terrified!!!

Y’all ever been fricking exhausted

I would like to go home and I would like to have my cdl.

I really gotta work on that and make that my top priority at this point so it will actually get done. Time to be studying that day and day and day and day

How long must one hide in the bathroom to avoid being outed by conservative family members who don’t understand anything about what you’re being outed as lmao

Shout out to everyone I’m ignoring to shout into the void instead. Gotta do what I gotta do to maintain my sanity in this place.