Teatales's posts

wow never thought I'd be getting 100 laterns

@vengeance: I got a socalled ' late term brain damage' and I cant feel much of my left arm + it is hard to control when I havent slept for a while or when it i cold or my brain has been over exposed to sensory stimulation.

I have a neuro-psyciatrist's word n paper that I am not recommended t get trough an education ( was else working towards becoming an anthropologist T_T ) or a fulltime job... So the past 3½ yeears Ive beenbattling the system, trying to get a pension beenin jobtraining for 2 of those years both didnt go too well. it exhausts me beyond anything. even if it is just 2 hours 2 times a week. so that I barely can focus on getting shopped or try to work on my friendships.

also I get super dizzy when suddenly exposed to cold weather or when Ive been in train/car and get out of it in the winter period. It feels like I'm litterally suddenly dragged towards the ground even if I stand still. My senses has also been affected making my eyes a lot more sensitive to bright light. being tired I also sometimes cant figure out how to swallow or to talk. even in mother language. ^^;

But at least I am not bound to a wheelchair which the doctors and nurses else was convined that I would be as I for the first month in the hspital couldnt move more than my left arm and my head from side to side. But I proved them wrong and spendta month fousing on getting to learn to walk again.. and how to use a fork, toothbrush, bhairbrush and such again. but my muscle sin the left arm /( and leg )are till weaker than in the right

that moment there suddenly is a christmas episode in a show my dad is watching /listening to.... christmas in july!

@vengeance: I do... or do not have it... I had a couple seizures 3½ years ago when I had 2 blood clots /strokes in my brain... but since then havent experienced them, luckily enough. I also before the choice of trying to get out of the medicine, went trough a brainwave-scan where I for 1 hour had to stare into some LED lights that blinked in different tempos and patterns, while hyperventilating. That result didnt show any signs of me having epilepsy, but year still o the meds. will take my last ½ pill on thursday..

It is a bit of an anxiety trigger, as I absolutely fear to suddenly roll over with an epileptic seizure. they are super scary.. looing complete control oer the body while your brain is still active and awake untill the seizure reaches its pek and you black out for a while. ( everything above 5 minutes and you gotta call for an ambulance is the common rule here )

My mom also got epilepsy, but that is way more severe as she both got the crampy version and the stare-into-distance version. Not being allowed to walk anywhere on her own


sorry for all that info ^^;

83 Latterlige laterner ler lallende af latteren

( or shortly 83 ) xD

@Vengeance: The only thing I hate about thunderstorms is the lightning itself, as I fear it might trigger a epileptic seizur e( which is a lot mor elikely these days where I am tapping out of the medication, with a doctors permission I should probably say ^^; )

Gaia..gosh its been years since I was there, dont even think I can remember my password or email for it 8'DD

@mousy: x'D I should also try and get a banana so I hopefully wont oversleep tomorow as I gotta go early to a market place... hopefully before the thunderstorm arrives. X_X

@Vengeance: It is allright, some people handle anxiety by talking a lot while others just shuts up, I'm the latter. ( I know a lot about fear and such thanks to working as a volunteer in a haunted house x'D)

@vengeance: throw in that the wrist at the same time feels super cold ^^;

Anyway I might be disappearing from this place for now... As I got very severe dentist phobia, even mentioning it in forums can trigger an anxiety attack for me ^^''

@vengeance: Ah sory didnt se your message ( it was the last on a page ) but im fin, despite having sore wrists. Sitting being excited about a LARP that most likely will first happen in September.. But when it happens I will have a lot of fun in front of me. 8'D
how about you?

I'm an Earthy Snake chinese astrology that is... in western Im a Leo... dont know about the rising and falling signs and all that

Ooh its the NUMBER GENERATOR.... gdi Im stupid

Trying this thingy out I guess 8'D...

Ok I guess not apparently you cant add 200 sides on the die... ( how do you others do it..? I tried adding in 200 sides it didnt work out so now Im kinda very confused and lost)

@Valefor: Observers unite! xD


Oh I did read in the FAQ before I posted on any thread to understand what it all was about... Guess I got distracted too much from it though. ( had parents yelling at eachother, a very loud television and a screaming fire alarm round me at that time now its 'only' the loud television )