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This may make me sound super old, but when I was a teenager I kept getting crushes on women, so when I was 17 I decied to get out of the closet to my younger sister ( who handled it pretty well ) and later my parents as lesbian. My father ( who is the oldest, from 1950 ) was fully accepting for it, " You can be with a man or a woman or something in between, I dont care about their religion nor their skincolor, as long they make you happy. " was what he told me, completely relaxed. While my mother just started crying. It followed up with some years where she tried to get her friends, or friends of her friends to date me, all in the fight to try and become a grandmother, as all of those women were mothers already.. >>;; No need to say that it didn't really work out and kinda made me take a distance to her.

But over the years that have past I have realized that I most likely are pansexual. For me gender doesnt matter. It is more how I feel around them. I need to feel safe and happy around them before the attration really happens. Though I never understood people who got celebrity crushes, I can still think : hey he/she/they /sin are cute/pretty. But it wont equal that I find myself as a potential partner to them.

Coming out as pan to my siblings and parents, and try to explain to them what that is, is not something I have done.

I also have a foster parent, that I have not come out to, as I fear how she will take it, as she and her family is rather religious.

As for gender.. I guess I am genderfluid, or agender.. Honestly not entirely sure. But I never felt entirely happy being a woman nor as a man so what I wear and from which store or section I buy my clothes, really depend on how I feel that day.. I cannot see myself as a feminine female, nor as a male... That is just confusing to me... As to what I be called, him/her/they/sin.. I honestly dont care that much