Glume's posts
Posted in I have been neglecting...
Posted 5 years ago
Good lord I'm having boot envy right now. Those are so my style. I can't wear boots right now because of pregnancy swelling D: I'll have to live vicariously through you.
Posted in my stomach is dying and on fire
Posted 5 years ago
Every single food I eat these days kills me inside. I recommend ginger tea, its such a big help.
Posted in This is why I try not to plan anything...
Posted 5 years ago
@Bonnie: Thank you! I'm still going to try for a natural birth. The alternative seems pretty scary, but so does all that pain.
@Miss Sandman: I have never personally met a trustworthy doctor... I've had my own bad experiences, and my aunt had multiple surgeries where random objects were left in her body and led to nasty infections, and my mum and the horrible woman that gave birth to her are currently on a lot of contradicting medications, and my husbands family has misdiagnoses that led to death. I know the science behind medicine and doctor care is sound, I just feel like capitalism makes it impossible to get correct treatment. When its all about robbing people blind, even the good doctors get over-worked and can make mistakes. But you're right... if there is a complication, I want to know someone can do something about it right away. Having babies is rough even when it all goes well....
@Miss Sandman: I have never personally met a trustworthy doctor... I've had my own bad experiences, and my aunt had multiple surgeries where random objects were left in her body and led to nasty infections, and my mum and the horrible woman that gave birth to her are currently on a lot of contradicting medications, and my husbands family has misdiagnoses that led to death. I know the science behind medicine and doctor care is sound, I just feel like capitalism makes it impossible to get correct treatment. When its all about robbing people blind, even the good doctors get over-worked and can make mistakes. But you're right... if there is a complication, I want to know someone can do something about it right away. Having babies is rough even when it all goes well....
Posted in This is why I try not to plan anything...
Posted 5 years ago
Honestly, I should expect by now that chaos is a ruling factor in my life. I worship chaos gods, after all...
As some of you may know, I'm getting ready to have a baby. Her due date was going to be June 15th. I was planning on having her at a local midwifery, natural-birth style. I invested a lot of time and money towards this goal.
This week I found out I have gestational hypertension. Basically high blood pressure brought on by pregnancy. It could have been a more serious situation, and could very well develop into something more serious, but for now it's mostly ok. Except, my midwifery plans are no longer an option, and the new place I'm going will have to induce labor about three weeks early.
I really wanted to avoid a hospital birth. I have anxiety about hospitals to begin with, and now I can't imagine them as anything but a great place to catch a pandemic. The only hospital we could find that had midwives and a decent environment for birth is super far away, but it looks like the best option.
I'm super nervous because my plans changed so drastically so close to her due date, but I suppose anything involving babies is wildly unpredictable. I slept so horribly last night about it though... Buh. I need a distraction so I don't stress out over things I can't change.
As some of you may know, I'm getting ready to have a baby. Her due date was going to be June 15th. I was planning on having her at a local midwifery, natural-birth style. I invested a lot of time and money towards this goal.
This week I found out I have gestational hypertension. Basically high blood pressure brought on by pregnancy. It could have been a more serious situation, and could very well develop into something more serious, but for now it's mostly ok. Except, my midwifery plans are no longer an option, and the new place I'm going will have to induce labor about three weeks early.
I really wanted to avoid a hospital birth. I have anxiety about hospitals to begin with, and now I can't imagine them as anything but a great place to catch a pandemic. The only hospital we could find that had midwives and a decent environment for birth is super far away, but it looks like the best option.
I'm super nervous because my plans changed so drastically so close to her due date, but I suppose anything involving babies is wildly unpredictable. I slept so horribly last night about it though... Buh. I need a distraction so I don't stress out over things I can't change.
Posted in really feeling that age now--
Posted 5 years ago
Sadly a lot of the things I like have a horrible fan-base. I try to like things in a low-key way to not be associated with jerks. Perhaps I just need to like better things :D
Posted in So I've been thinking...
Posted 5 years ago
I love watching people art. Just might have to tag me or I'll miss it. I fall asleep a lot :p
Posted in motivation
Posted 5 years ago
I feel you there... I can go for years with no motivation, then suddenly for two weeks or so I'll art every day... then its back to my slump. Gotta ride that motivation while its around. I just wish I knew how to spread it out more evenly. I can't wait to see what you're working on.
Posted in How is everyone?
Posted 5 years ago
I was a hermit for 27 years so I have this on lockdown (pun fully intended). Its not only easy but preferred for me to be at home alone, with my dog and husband as company. Just gotta get past my narcolepsy and carpal tunnel (thanks for that last one, pregnancy!) to be productive art-wise.
Posted in Hobby Lobby continued operating despite being named a nonessential business
Posted 5 years ago
Every Coloradan middle aged housewife is siding with Hobby Lobby claiming they are an essential business. I'm both a Coloradan middle aged housewife and an artist and I couldn't disagree more.
Posted in I need human interaction
Posted 5 years ago
I was a hermit for the first 27 years of my life. Internet is key to keeping the sads at bay. Other than chatting with likable folks, you should: Learn new things, take on new hobbies, get into forum-based roleplay, cook new meals, make things with your hands, get on top of projects you've never had time to do... Basically stay busy. Motivation to do these things might disappear, but you just have to push past that. Make lists to stay on task and give yourself breaks but never stop doing things.
Posted in Does anyone else replace the lover in love songs with your depression?
Posted 5 years ago
I usually just change songs to be about my dog. I'm a hit at parties.
Posted in Earrings?
Posted 5 years ago
Etsy. Etsy mostly deals in hand-made arts and crafts, so not only are you more likely to find something unique, but you'll be supporting someone who might be having a hard time due to our recent crisis. Just use other key-words that your friend likes plus the word earrings when searching and you'll find all sorts of cool stuff.
Posted in growing up or going away?
Posted 5 years ago
I felt those feels a lot when I was on my way to "growing up". Mind you, nothing clicked for me until I was nearing 30. On the road there, my closest sibling went off to college and pretty much forgot I existed... the rest of my close family was wrecked by the person usually holding it together. I had one close friend who I am now not close to at all because we are too different of people. It was just a transitional phase, and I'm sure thats what it is for you as well. Right now I have three people I'm family-level close to, and two people I trust as friends. Its not a lot, but the quality is so much better than the quantity.
The depression makes it hard, for sure. Just know that the people who are scared to support you through the depression are not worth keeping in your life anyway. I personally had to practice looking at things on the bright side. It sounds stupid when you're in that headspace, but I just kept replacing negative thoughts with positive ones. I forced it until it was natural. I still get depressed at random, over pointless things more often than not, but it no longer rules my life.
I guess my biggest advice is not to isolate (well, at least when thats a health-wise option again). Talking to people online counts just as much as going outside and socializing with people face to face. Just talk to folks, about anything. It makes such a big difference to connect when you feel like you can't. You might find a lot of people you can't connect with, but the one or two people you can connect with more than make up for it.
The depression makes it hard, for sure. Just know that the people who are scared to support you through the depression are not worth keeping in your life anyway. I personally had to practice looking at things on the bright side. It sounds stupid when you're in that headspace, but I just kept replacing negative thoughts with positive ones. I forced it until it was natural. I still get depressed at random, over pointless things more often than not, but it no longer rules my life.
I guess my biggest advice is not to isolate (well, at least when thats a health-wise option again). Talking to people online counts just as much as going outside and socializing with people face to face. Just talk to folks, about anything. It makes such a big difference to connect when you feel like you can't. You might find a lot of people you can't connect with, but the one or two people you can connect with more than make up for it.
Posted in I don't usually like to tell people what to do with their time, but...
Posted 5 years ago
So far, I've tried Duster and Carrion.
Duster is a cute rogue-lite western. Basic character customization, run around and kill baddies. There's probably more to it, but I died pretty quickly both attempts at playing. I got a bit wore out from feeling unwell, but I for sure want to try it again later.
Carrion is just... my ideal game?! You're basically The Thing. You play a giant flesh-monster, you destroy everything in your path. The more you eat, the bigger you get. You also get various upgrades to how you can destroy everything. The screams of the pixel-humans fill my soul with delight.
@Eruca: I get that way a LOT. I still try to play but I'm just not as into it... I'm too busy or tired and cant be bothered to play games that take any investment. Thats probably why I have over 100 games in my library and and even more on my wishlist. I'm like yeah, this is probably kinda cool, but *meh*
Duster is a cute rogue-lite western. Basic character customization, run around and kill baddies. There's probably more to it, but I died pretty quickly both attempts at playing. I got a bit wore out from feeling unwell, but I for sure want to try it again later.
Carrion is just... my ideal game?! You're basically The Thing. You play a giant flesh-monster, you destroy everything in your path. The more you eat, the bigger you get. You also get various upgrades to how you can destroy everything. The screams of the pixel-humans fill my soul with delight.
@Eruca: I get that way a LOT. I still try to play but I'm just not as into it... I'm too busy or tired and cant be bothered to play games that take any investment. Thats probably why I have over 100 games in my library and and even more on my wishlist. I'm like yeah, this is probably kinda cool, but *meh*