Shadami's posts

i' m pretty sure i solved the harder and failed the easy xD

i briefly had a membership to RMSC, the planetarium, and the Strong Museum. :D

ahahahahah. yes.

i do have a regular therapist now. she's.... okay. by far the best i've had. but not incredibly helpful. i get more just talking to friends.

@Lopsided Oreo: I grew up by Rochester xD

@star2000shadow: i'm doing okay. i'm really glad he's at least out of my daily life. and i can breath and get my life straightened out.
I've already stopped smoking and drinking since I kicked him out of the house. and I smile a lot more and am no longer suicidal.

@Wildfire: CooperationisKey Stayed up all night playing minecraft. xD sorry. i think i somehow missed a post when i replied.

well then, whenever you can get to it if you still choose to solve it I believe in you! xD

@star2000shadow: i think i did disappear xD
at least for a bit. basically since the divorce started i think

@Lopsided Oreo: Central NY around Syracuse ^^

and whenever he's visiting me again he could call. But I don't think he can call for me because i would need to give permission over the phone or something like that. confusing things xD plus he can't really call across the border cause phone plans.

@Lopsided Oreo: actually I'm a single mom in ny state and my boyfriend/soulmate lives in canada . And my ex husband is a *censored*

Oh and not offended or upset or anything :o just providing information ^^

@Lopsided Oreo: welllll. part of the reason i even have a therapist is because my social anxiety is at an all time high, and my ability to cope with things is at a low.i don't like driving, and phone calls make me panic xD

i've never been able to find a good therapist and so i've been trying to stick this one out because its obvious she's trying to help. sometimes things just... aren't helpful. she doesn't get something. its hard to explain. but yeah. i with i could find someone that actually helps.
I don't know how to find them and i feel bad backing out of every therapist i've had

@Lopsided Oreo: i really wish i could. sadly, this is where i got sent by insurance.

@Lopsided Oreo: she specifically brought up her kids later in the conversation :[ i'd been ready to give her the benefit of doubt that she didn't understand parenting, until that moment.
and she was specifically "the advice on driving i used to give my kids" ... i'm like.. no... we're hitting a generation gap here lady. you're helpfulness may have just gone out.