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Posted 3 months ago
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Talking to new people, hooking up with new people, whatever… he’s always on my mind. Deep down I wish I were with him instead of them.
Talking to new people, hooking up with new people, whatever… he’s always on my mind. Deep down I wish I were with him instead of them.
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Posted 3 months ago
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Le sigh…
It makes me upset because, despite everything, I still like him and I really wish I could spend time with him again. 😞
Man, I hate this.
Le sigh…
It makes me upset because, despite everything, I still like him and I really wish I could spend time with him again. 😞
Man, I hate this.
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Posted 3 months ago
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I’ve noticed a pattern of whenever I’d ask him to hangout, like go to a show or something, he’d either say yes and then cancel the day of, or he’d be, again, too depressed or out of town.
I know he’s depressed, I know he sometimes has to travel for work, but always when I want to hang out? Meanwhile whenever he’d ask to hang out, get drinks, go to dinner, hook up, whatever, I’d drop everything to go. I’d always make myself available to him (except once when I really needed time to myself), yet it seemed like he only wanted to be available for me on his terms.
I’ve noticed a pattern of whenever I’d ask him to hangout, like go to a show or something, he’d either say yes and then cancel the day of, or he’d be, again, too depressed or out of town.
I know he’s depressed, I know he sometimes has to travel for work, but always when I want to hang out? Meanwhile whenever he’d ask to hang out, get drinks, go to dinner, hook up, whatever, I’d drop everything to go. I’d always make myself available to him (except once when I really needed time to myself), yet it seemed like he only wanted to be available for me on his terms.
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Posted 3 months ago
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It’d be fun to go with dude, but I know that would never happen. Even if I were to randomly ask him he’d probably just ignore me or tell me he’s “too depressed” or “out of town.”
It’d be fun to go with dude, but I know that would never happen. Even if I were to randomly ask him he’d probably just ignore me or tell me he’s “too depressed” or “out of town.”
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Idk if you’d call them an emo cover band. They’re called The Warped Band, paying homage to Warped Tour, so I guess they’d be emo? Emo-ish? Emo adjacent? Idk.
Idk if you’d call them an emo cover band. They’re called The Warped Band, paying homage to Warped Tour, so I guess they’d be emo? Emo-ish? Emo adjacent? Idk.
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Oh wait, there’s another emo cover band that I want to see this Friday! So that’d be like my first concert-ish of April.
Oh wait, there’s another emo cover band that I want to see this Friday! So that’d be like my first concert-ish of April.
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That was the last of my March concerts. I went to 4 concerts (5 if you include the emo cover band I saw) and although I’ve had fun, I’m worn out and glad that they’re over for now. @-@
My sister wants me to go to a concert with her in April, but she hasn’t bought the tickets yet and it’s in two weeks. If we go we go, but if not then I’m not upset. I could use that break time to focus on other things.
That was the last of my March concerts. I went to 4 concerts (5 if you include the emo cover band I saw) and although I’ve had fun, I’m worn out and glad that they’re over for now. @-@
My sister wants me to go to a concert with her in April, but she hasn’t bought the tickets yet and it’s in two weeks. If we go we go, but if not then I’m not upset. I could use that break time to focus on other things.
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I went to a concert last night and I had so much fun that I didn’t care that I was alone. [ ‘:
I went to a concert last night and I had so much fun that I didn’t care that I was alone. [ ‘:
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Posted 3 months ago
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There’s no point in overthinking. There’s nothing there.
If he wanted to talk to me, he’d have done it by now. Him not reaching out to me in general is a glaring sign.
There’s no point in overthinking. There’s nothing there.
If he wanted to talk to me, he’d have done it by now. Him not reaching out to me in general is a glaring sign.
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Posted 3 months ago
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I can’t turn off my brain. I’m thinking too much about past interactions with bro.
When I told him happy birthday, he responded saying “thank you! 🖤” Since he’s all emo and shit he uses the black heart often, and would send me the heart randomly sometimes or when expressing affection or feelings(?).
Does the black heart mean anything now, or is it just his way of being nice? Does he send it to everyone or just people he likes? I can’t lie, seeing the heart felt reassuring in the moment, but him not talking to me still leaves me at a standstill.
I can’t turn off my brain. I’m thinking too much about past interactions with bro.
When I told him happy birthday, he responded saying “thank you! 🖤” Since he’s all emo and shit he uses the black heart often, and would send me the heart randomly sometimes or when expressing affection or feelings(?).
Does the black heart mean anything now, or is it just his way of being nice? Does he send it to everyone or just people he likes? I can’t lie, seeing the heart felt reassuring in the moment, but him not talking to me still leaves me at a standstill.
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Posted 3 months ago
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On a more positive note, at least three people complimented my shirt and I managed to have a convo about Pierce the Veil with one of the regulars. [ ‘:
Despite that….. I still felt so alone there. 😔
On a more positive note, at least three people complimented my shirt and I managed to have a convo about Pierce the Veil with one of the regulars. [ ‘:
Despite that….. I still felt so alone there. 😔
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Posted 3 months ago
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And the main reason why I applied to this bar, not only because I wanted the extra income, but because ol dude suggested I try being a bartender. So I applied to multiple bars in the area and got hired here.
Now that he’s not talking to me I kind of lost interest in being there. Idk how to explain it.
And the main reason why I applied to this bar, not only because I wanted the extra income, but because ol dude suggested I try being a bartender. So I applied to multiple bars in the area and got hired here.
Now that he’s not talking to me I kind of lost interest in being there. Idk how to explain it.
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Posted 3 months ago
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I also learned today that my manager is 10 years younger than me. 🫠
I honestly think I’m the oldest person working there, with everyone being like 4-10 years younger than me. It kinda makes me feel weird tbh. Like I’m out of place.
I also learned today that my manager is 10 years younger than me. 🫠
I honestly think I’m the oldest person working there, with everyone being like 4-10 years younger than me. It kinda makes me feel weird tbh. Like I’m out of place.
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Posted 3 months ago
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Also, working here is kind of annoying because literally no one, expect for their other new hire, trained me.
I’m basically having to learn everything on the fly, which isn’t good when we’re busy because they have to stop what they’re doing to answer my questions or help me.
Sure, that’s how you learn, but my amount of questions and cluelessness could be avoided if someone actually properly trained me. I feel so useless here.
Also, working here is kind of annoying because literally no one, expect for their other new hire, trained me.
I’m basically having to learn everything on the fly, which isn’t good when we’re busy because they have to stop what they’re doing to answer my questions or help me.
Sure, that’s how you learn, but my amount of questions and cluelessness could be avoided if someone actually properly trained me. I feel so useless here.