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Posted 1 week ago
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Side note, I was hoping to see the members of the local emo cover band at the concert since their band name is inspired by one of the band’s songs. Seems like I run into them on random occasions, but when I want to see them they’re no where to be found. 🫠 (That also doesn’t mean they weren’t at the concert. They very well could have been and I just didn’t happen to see them).
The singer came into my bar on Sunday. When I saw him I couldn’t register that it was him at first and initially thought “he looks familiar, I feel like I know him.” Once it clicked, I waved so happily at him and said hi, then reintroduced myself. 😅 I really don’t want to come off as a groupie, but I like the band so much and they’ve lowkey become a comfort for me.
Side note, I was hoping to see the members of the local emo cover band at the concert since their band name is inspired by one of the band’s songs. Seems like I run into them on random occasions, but when I want to see them they’re no where to be found. 🫠 (That also doesn’t mean they weren’t at the concert. They very well could have been and I just didn’t happen to see them).
The singer came into my bar on Sunday. When I saw him I couldn’t register that it was him at first and initially thought “he looks familiar, I feel like I know him.” Once it clicked, I waved so happily at him and said hi, then reintroduced myself. 😅 I really don’t want to come off as a groupie, but I like the band so much and they’ve lowkey become a comfort for me.
Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot
Posted 1 week ago
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I almost wish he never texted me.
His text fucked up my progress, reignited my feelings, and brought back all my sadness.
Why apologize and tell me that you and the girl you dumped me for broke up if your intention wasn’t to try winning me back? Why is the break up any of my business? I wish he never told me. Knowing he had a girlfriend made it somewhat easier to process everything vs knowing he’s single. Now that I know he’s single my brain keeps thinking “what if there could be a chance for me?” If there really was a chance he never would’ve randomly dumped me for someone else…. He never liked me or wanted me.
I almost wish he never texted me.
His text fucked up my progress, reignited my feelings, and brought back all my sadness.
Why apologize and tell me that you and the girl you dumped me for broke up if your intention wasn’t to try winning me back? Why is the break up any of my business? I wish he never told me. Knowing he had a girlfriend made it somewhat easier to process everything vs knowing he’s single. Now that I know he’s single my brain keeps thinking “what if there could be a chance for me?” If there really was a chance he never would’ve randomly dumped me for someone else…. He never liked me or wanted me.
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Posted 1 week ago
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I just got back from seeing his fav band (I didn’t go see them because they’re his fav, I’d been wanting to check them out for a while). I enjoyed the show, but the whole time I wondered if he was there. After it ended I kinda lingered around the area for a few minutes and I didn’t see him, but that doesn’t mean he was there. I’m more inclined to believe he wasn’t.
Deep down I wish he were there. I’ve always wanted to go to a concert with him and today’s concert would’ve been the perfect opportunity. I guess now I really have to sit with my feelings and process that I’ll never see or talk to him again. Ugh…
I just got back from seeing his fav band (I didn’t go see them because they’re his fav, I’d been wanting to check them out for a while). I enjoyed the show, but the whole time I wondered if he was there. After it ended I kinda lingered around the area for a few minutes and I didn’t see him, but that doesn’t mean he was there. I’m more inclined to believe he wasn’t.
Deep down I wish he were there. I’ve always wanted to go to a concert with him and today’s concert would’ve been the perfect opportunity. I guess now I really have to sit with my feelings and process that I’ll never see or talk to him again. Ugh…
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Posted 2 weeks ago
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And to make matters worse, ol dude was on my mind the entire time. The guy I went out with knew about him dumping me and I was honest with him about him randomly texting me the other day.
I think I should hold off on dating for a bit until I can process my feelings again and try to move on. It’s not fair to date other people with someone else in mind (someone you’d rather be with, at that).
And to make matters worse, ol dude was on my mind the entire time. The guy I went out with knew about him dumping me and I was honest with him about him randomly texting me the other day.
I think I should hold off on dating for a bit until I can process my feelings again and try to move on. It’s not fair to date other people with someone else in mind (someone you’d rather be with, at that).
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Posted 2 weeks ago
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I went on that date on Friday and it was okay. The weather was beautiful and the drinks were good, but I don’t think I’m into the guy as much as he’s into me. We ended up hooking up and the sex wasn’t really impressive either. This isn’t to talk down on him because he seemed really nice, I just don’t think we’re compatible.
I went on that date on Friday and it was okay. The weather was beautiful and the drinks were good, but I don’t think I’m into the guy as much as he’s into me. We ended up hooking up and the sex wasn’t really impressive either. This isn’t to talk down on him because he seemed really nice, I just don’t think we’re compatible.
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Posted 2 weeks ago
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I just wonder when he stopped liking me? What was it that made him lose interest? Did I do something wrong? I’ll never know…
I just wonder when he stopped liking me? What was it that made him lose interest? Did I do something wrong? I’ll never know…
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Posted 2 weeks ago
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Gotta process the heartache and try to get over him all over again..
Gotta process the heartache and try to get over him all over again..
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Posted 2 weeks ago
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I don’t even feel excited anymore for my date on Friday.
I just want to shut myself in my room and not talk to anyone.
I don’t even feel excited anymore for my date on Friday.
I just want to shut myself in my room and not talk to anyone.
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Posted 2 weeks ago
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I asked him today if I’m still dumped and if he only texted me to apologize and nothing more. He said yes, that he’s not ready for anything more right now.
I guess that’ll be the last time we ever talk then..
I only asked for clarification, so as not to get my hopes up thinking I’m on his radar again. I feel pretty sad, I can’t even lie… I really liked him. I had so many things in mind that I wanted to experience with him, and this just means I’ll for sure never get that chance. Le. Sigh.
I asked him today if I’m still dumped and if he only texted me to apologize and nothing more. He said yes, that he’s not ready for anything more right now.
I guess that’ll be the last time we ever talk then..
I only asked for clarification, so as not to get my hopes up thinking I’m on his radar again. I feel pretty sad, I can’t even lie… I really liked him. I had so many things in mind that I wanted to experience with him, and this just means I’ll for sure never get that chance. Le. Sigh.
Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot
Posted 3 weeks ago
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On the bright side, a customer at my bar asked for my number last night and wants to take me out on Friday, and I’ve still been talking to the guy I met at the music festival. At least I know I’m desired.
On the bright side, a customer at my bar asked for my number last night and wants to take me out on Friday, and I’ve still been talking to the guy I met at the music festival. At least I know I’m desired.
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Posted 3 weeks ago
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My head is all over the place right now. 😞
My head is all over the place right now. 😞
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Posted 3 weeks ago
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His favorite band will be in town next week. A part of me wants to ask if he wants to go, but I don’t want to push it.
I’m sure after today I’ll go back to being an afterthought. Just someone to run back to after shit hits the fan, only to ghost and find love elsewhere.
His favorite band will be in town next week. A part of me wants to ask if he wants to go, but I don’t want to push it.
I’m sure after today I’ll go back to being an afterthought. Just someone to run back to after shit hits the fan, only to ghost and find love elsewhere.
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Posted 3 weeks ago
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I’ve been looking for him in other people, but they’re not him.
I’ve been mourning all the things I wanted to experience with him that I won’t get to.
Him texting me ignites a hope that maybe, just maybe he’ll talk to me again and we can go back to how things were. It created this sense of anticipation where I fear that now I’ll be hoping he texts me or that he wants to hangout.
This is severe wishful thinking…
I’ve been looking for him in other people, but they’re not him.
I’ve been mourning all the things I wanted to experience with him that I won’t get to.
Him texting me ignites a hope that maybe, just maybe he’ll talk to me again and we can go back to how things were. It created this sense of anticipation where I fear that now I’ll be hoping he texts me or that he wants to hangout.
This is severe wishful thinking…
Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot
Posted 3 weeks ago
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Seeing his name in my inbox brought back all the sadness, though. I went through the sadness, I processed the heartache, and I prepared myself to move on without him. I accepted that I’d likely never hear from him again and that he wasn’t meant to be in my life. I started seeing other people to get over him, just for him to randomly pop up.
I can’t say I’m mad because deep down a part of me still likes and misses him, but a bigger part of me feels sad and numb knowing that I got a taste of what I wanted and that after today I’ll probably never talk to him again.
Seeing his name in my inbox brought back all the sadness, though. I went through the sadness, I processed the heartache, and I prepared myself to move on without him. I accepted that I’d likely never hear from him again and that he wasn’t meant to be in my life. I started seeing other people to get over him, just for him to randomly pop up.
I can’t say I’m mad because deep down a part of me still likes and misses him, but a bigger part of me feels sad and numb knowing that I got a taste of what I wanted and that after today I’ll probably never talk to him again.