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Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

I’m tempted to text that one guy if he’s still interested in meeting up.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

I sampled some of the beers on tap just for an excuse to drink, and I’m feeling more sad and in my feelings. 😞

I miss spending time with him.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

I feel like such a lonely loser here….

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

It makes me feel more sad considering I had a crush on dude, got dumped, and have been feeling more lonely ever since.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

So, I’m at my bar job and both of the bartenders have their boyfriends here (one just got hired and is working tonight), and I feel like a 5th wheel. I just feel so lonely seeing them talk with their men, meanwhile I’m trying to keep busy since I don’t have anyone to talk to. :/

Posted in Ark's iPod Posted 3 months ago

Secrets - State Champs

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

The rational part of my brain is telling me that everything will be okay. Idk how true that is, but I hope so.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

Regardless, I’m sure the outcome would’ve been the same.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

Like, if I weren’t taking this medication, would I have perceived this entire situation differently? Would I have reacted the way I did and asked him that question? Would I be shaken to my core out of fear at the thought of sending a mere text?

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

In my life’s experience so far, I’ve learned that anything that causes me such intense anxiety isn’t going to work out or wasn’t meant to be. I should take this as a sign.

The increase in anxiety is also likely from my medication, so it’s been hard trying to rationalize that and keep a leveled head.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

Le sigh

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

Although, the last time we went out he seemed impressed when I remembered his birthday, so who knows?

Still… I’m sure he wouldn’t care to get a text from me. I’ll see how I feel tomorrow I guess, but there’s a part of me saying it’s not worth it.

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

I’m sure he’s not looking for a birthday text from me anyway, so I probably shouldn’t bother…

Posted in Ark's Post-A-Lot Posted 3 months ago

I don’t think he’ll respond. I’ve experienced this last year with someone else. They were shitty at responding to me and when I told them happy birthday they ghosted me, only to text me a few weeks later saying they didn’t respond on purpose because they felt like I liked them and didn’t want to lead me on.

Idk if it’s fear or a gut feeling, but I wouldn’t be surprised if dude does the same thing…