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Secrets - State Champs
Secrets - State Champs
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The rational part of my brain is telling me that everything will be okay. Idk how true that is, but I hope so.
The rational part of my brain is telling me that everything will be okay. Idk how true that is, but I hope so.
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Regardless, I’m sure the outcome would’ve been the same.
Regardless, I’m sure the outcome would’ve been the same.
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Like, if I weren’t taking this medication, would I have perceived this entire situation differently? Would I have reacted the way I did and asked him that question? Would I be shaken to my core out of fear at the thought of sending a mere text?
Like, if I weren’t taking this medication, would I have perceived this entire situation differently? Would I have reacted the way I did and asked him that question? Would I be shaken to my core out of fear at the thought of sending a mere text?
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In my life’s experience so far, I’ve learned that anything that causes me such intense anxiety isn’t going to work out or wasn’t meant to be. I should take this as a sign.
The increase in anxiety is also likely from my medication, so it’s been hard trying to rationalize that and keep a leveled head.
In my life’s experience so far, I’ve learned that anything that causes me such intense anxiety isn’t going to work out or wasn’t meant to be. I should take this as a sign.
The increase in anxiety is also likely from my medication, so it’s been hard trying to rationalize that and keep a leveled head.
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Le sigh
Le sigh
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Although, the last time we went out he seemed impressed when I remembered his birthday, so who knows?
Still… I’m sure he wouldn’t care to get a text from me. I’ll see how I feel tomorrow I guess, but there’s a part of me saying it’s not worth it.
Although, the last time we went out he seemed impressed when I remembered his birthday, so who knows?
Still… I’m sure he wouldn’t care to get a text from me. I’ll see how I feel tomorrow I guess, but there’s a part of me saying it’s not worth it.
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I’m sure he’s not looking for a birthday text from me anyway, so I probably shouldn’t bother…
I’m sure he’s not looking for a birthday text from me anyway, so I probably shouldn’t bother…
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I don’t think he’ll respond. I’ve experienced this last year with someone else. They were shitty at responding to me and when I told them happy birthday they ghosted me, only to text me a few weeks later saying they didn’t respond on purpose because they felt like I liked them and didn’t want to lead me on.
Idk if it’s fear or a gut feeling, but I wouldn’t be surprised if dude does the same thing…
I don’t think he’ll respond. I’ve experienced this last year with someone else. They were shitty at responding to me and when I told them happy birthday they ghosted me, only to text me a few weeks later saying they didn’t respond on purpose because they felt like I liked them and didn’t want to lead me on.
Idk if it’s fear or a gut feeling, but I wouldn’t be surprised if dude does the same thing…
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If he doesn’t respond then I’ll have no other choice but to move on.
If he does respond then at least my anxiety will be eased.
If he doesn’t respond then I’ll have no other choice but to move on.
If he does respond then at least my anxiety will be eased.
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Dude’s birthday is tomorrow and I want to tell him happy birthday, but I worry that he won’t respond to me, or block me, or tell me to leave him alone. Thinking of this yesterday made me so anxious that it made me feel sicker. 😞
Dude’s birthday is tomorrow and I want to tell him happy birthday, but I worry that he won’t respond to me, or block me, or tell me to leave him alone. Thinking of this yesterday made me so anxious that it made me feel sicker. 😞
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I woke up feeling a slight sense of joy, but is it a false sense? I fear that it’s a set up.
I woke up feeling a slight sense of joy, but is it a false sense? I fear that it’s a set up.
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I worry that I’m just a burden.
I worry that I’m just a burden.
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It’s been so long since my anxiety’s made me this physically ill.
It’s been so long since my anxiety’s made me this physically ill.