Count Trashula's posts

@icedchai: yeah, we never got into it at all. spent all that time living with family and waiting for it because she kept promising it'd be done soon, and it never was. We couldn't find any other places to rent, so eventually we gave up and bought a place. That came with its own headaches in the form of my job lying about transfers and the lender being discriminatory (or so we came to assume, given his attitude in conversation with us after many screwups on his end that were so bad I don't see how they weren't on purpose)... all the while, our families not helping at all by being judgmental and manipulative throughout the process. :'^) and this is why I'm not a people person.

@Static: I vote for door #1

now to take a break and go to the grocery store...

I've gotten a 5-something-or-other, but definitely not the closest one in the thread so far.

@Shark: pain pals ;v; I'm in NC. I'm sure there are similar if not the same things, but don't know if they apply to me since I'm not disabled--I just can't do the kind of work I'm qualified for at the moment. But then, I don't really know either way; it's not the avenue anyone has recommended I take when asking around.

@icedchai: i'd say he was on to something tbh, people are awful. even the nicer, more well-meaning people we've dealt with just couldn't be bothered to follow through and ended up making our situation that much worse. a friend of the family offered to let us rent a place she owned, but it was uninhabitable because her last tenants trashed the place. we offered to help pay for the many needed repairs, but she wouldn't let us--and insisted on getting cheap labor who ended up being unlicensed, and everything they did had to be undone, but she never bothered to keep up with it and again refused our assistance. so we wasted a year or more being strung along with "work is being done, now we're waiting on xyz, work is being done again, now it's not, now we haven't heard from her in months, now it's definitely gonna be finished by this date, now it'll be a few more months", etc. can't rely on anyone...

@icedchai: You get it. I hate that for you, but I'd be lying if I said it didn't make me feel a little better knowing somebody knows exactly what I'm talking about--and that things have improved for you. I hope things continue looking up!
I was really hoping this year would be the year everything got fixed and in order since we finally moved out, but I guess that wasn't a realistic expectation, given how much we had on our shoulders from the start. But progress is progress. My few friends have issues of their own, as well, so I know the feeling of not being able to do much, but I help in whatever small way I can and try to find solutions, and I appreciate when they do the same for me.
I just wish the people who did have more time/money/resources at their disposal would do something, especially when it's literally their job. idk how I always end up dealing with people who can't be assed to follow up on things or communicate with me, whether it's doctors or employers or even the lender when we were buying the house, but at least we've gotten this far, despite getting screwed over at seemingly every turn. My experience with other people thus far has been so frustrating it's almost comical, which unfortunately leaves me not knowing what to do with myself and my friends who haven't been in the same situation being equally clueless. I feel like I caught a lucky break with this new doctor pointing me to a clinic I didn't know about, even if I ended up having to wait even longer for it. At least now I have a path to follow, however slowly.

I was on some antibiotics and couldn't have caffeine, but didn't feel justified spending money on decaf just for one week, so I have not been able to have my daily cup of coffee. Today was the first day off them, so of course I whipped out my big ol' Pennywise mug and had at it. I think I should have taken it a little slower, 'cause now I'm all jittery. Oh, well. Worth it. Delicious coffee, my precious...

*rolls in* ...get it... rolls? cause we're rolling for numbers. :U good morn...afternoon

@Totalanimefan: Yeah, that's pretty much how it goes. Same with "at-will" employment. They can do whatever they want to you. Luckily I don't have to worry much about food; my friend that I live with makes enough to cover groceries, utilities, and mortgage. It's just my own personal expenses (car, phone, medical, etc) I'm concerned about. She recently got a pretty large check from a family member, which will be very helpful whenever it clears, so the timing on that is great but of course we still have bills and taxes to pay so we can't rely on that for long. I just wish I'd known about this whole Medicaid/Merci Clinic process a lot sooner. I put off going to a doctor for so long because I thought I can't afford it, and nobody else had any clue what to do about my situation... Should have gone when we first got here, but I didn't think the doctor would have any answers for me since my old doctor didn't when I asked them. Guess my old doctor just sucked, go figure. Too late to worry about that now, though, I guess.


@icedchai: Jeez, sorry you went through all that! Glad to hear you're doing better, though. And interesting that you mention it being lonely, because that's a big thing I've been feeling through all this. Not something anyone ever really talks about, but a huge part of the experience for me. I feel isolated even though I have friends to talk to because nobody has any answers and none of them can really relate. A big part of why my problems have persisted through pretty much my whole life now is just that no one around me either knows enough or cares enough to offer much (if any) support. It's really hard for me to think it gets better when I always seem to encounter the same problems and setbacks every time I see a little progress. But who knows. I'm in a different environment now, and even though financially I'm not any better off and I have even less of a support network now, I'm in a better home environment than I was before we moved. So assuming things don't get worse before next year when I'm supposed to finally get all these tests done and get my new medicine, I can only assume my situation will start to repair itself after that. If I can just get my health in check, the rest should fall into place.

there's an awful lot of numbers between 1-1000, guess we best get rolling. or... generating?

looks hard cause i'm bad at sudokus I might try it if I get the time ;v;

@Totalanimefan: Yeah.. tbh I've wondered if there was any kind of legal action I could take, considering I was told by my store manager that I would have a transfer and even got it in writing. But that's more money, time, and stress than I could afford. All the waiting wouldn't be so bad if not for the fact that I'm almost out of money; I still got bills to pay and a couple of months' worth is all I have left at this point, so it's cutting it really close. I'll probably have no choice but to work while I'm sick anyway.

@Totalanimefan: Stress is the biggest trigger for my symptoms, so that's believable.. At least the other problems are going away now, but of course I had yet another complication with getting treatment for the Crohn's; I have to wait for a response from Medicaid before I can move forward, and from what I'm reading, that can take over a month. Not sure what I'm expected to do in the meantime with all this waiting. Really is just one problem after another.


@Kory: I don't know much about SSI; I do know I've looked into getting Disability before, but found I didn't meet their qualifications for my condition and would have to hire a lawyer to argue that I couldn't do my regular line of work in order to even have a chance... so that was pretty much out. I didn't think I qualified for Medicaid either, but I had to apply recently. When I saw the specialist, they recommended I go to a particular clinic that helps people without insurance pay for their medical costs. But when I contacted them, they said they'll only do so after I get denied by Medicaid. So now I'm waiting for that. I'm not aware of anything else available to me, so I guess waiting is my only option right now. I just have to hope they say/do something before I completely run out of money.

I really appreciate you taking the time to respond to this. I never expect people to care or have anything to say, so it means a lot to me.

So I have Crohn's, and because I had to leave my job in order to move, I lost my insurance and thus had to quit my medication. It took so long to get things sorted out here that I of course ended up having a flare of symptoms again, which led to being unable to get a new job, which made going to a doctor seem impossible. I finally went anyway, and I'm in the process of trying to get some form of financial help so that I can start treatment, which will be a long way off since they want to do tests first and that'll put me months out. Not sure what I'll do until then, but one step at a time I guess.
But because life hates me, it decided that being in constant pain from one condition wasn't enough! The other day I took my ear tunnels out to clean them, and somehow one ear tore and was really irritated/swollen. Did a lot of cleaning and whatnot and basically I lost 2 sizes in one day, seemingly out of nowhere. Then while that's going on, I start having UTI symptoms. No idea how or why, but hey, sure, let's make me even more miserable. Had to contact a cheap clinic for antibiotics, so there's that. And now my lower back hurts. It started yesterday and hasn't let up since. I've been taking Tylenol and it helps slightly, but I have no idea where this pain came from or what to do about it aside from that. I told the doctor about it, fearing it was related to the infection, but they didn't seem to think it was cause for alarm. I guess we'll see if the pain clears up along with the other symptoms.
Just... why? Why do so many things have to be wrong with my stupid body at once? And how am I supposed to get a job like this? I can't keep paying my bills for much longer; I've got enough for another couple of months if I don't have any more unexpected expenses like this, but at this rate, I'm not counting on it. I really don't know what to do. I need money, like, yesterday. There are luckily a few things I can do to help with the medical costs, but that's not gonna cover my car insurance, cell phone, credit card, etc when what little I have in the bank runs out while I'm still too sick to work.
idk man, feels an awful lot like I'm circling the drain.