Jolly's posts

*edit: I'm not blindly moving. I just want opinions or conversation, I wont make a decision based on this though so please don't see me as that rash lol ;;;;


I've been coping recently by focusing harder on my future plans and trying to solidify them a bit. And create some backup plans while I'm at it~
I want to move back to Texas so I'm trying to research decent areas to try!

I lived near Houston in Sugarland and Missouri City, TX for almost 4 years when I was in my late teens. Not everyone's favorite place to live, but for me it was truly life saving experience. The people I met there and the experiences I had were incredibly important to me, and frankly they showed me how to really cherish life no matter what happens. They know they mean the world to me to this day.

BUT I don't want to go back to Houston area :vanora_xd:
That is a cherished place that I feel like I shouldn't touch again. It already served its purpose and by going back and seeing how much it must have changed, I don't want to ruin my memories of it. I need them to keep me going.
Like, I passed that level of the game, onto the next.

I prefer to live suburban, but also would be starting cheap until bf and I really get ourselves established into our jobs in whatever place we move to. I've been looking at College Station and read that its a good place to be, but I'm not sure how credible the sources are? Or how to really know before actually seeing for myself. I'll probably hit up an airbnb to check it out first before I make final decisions.
Anyone here know much about the place though?
Or anywhere else in the state. I just want to leave Colorado/mountain lands and live at sea level again, above all else.



Also, have you ever moved yourself to another state?
Did the process go smoothly for you or was it difficult to get a home or job?

Thanks for all the advice and support. I wont call authorities, but I will be sure to take care of myself in any way I can.
I finished the night with a belly full of wine and buzzfeed unsolved episodes.
But this morning my bf and I spent a few hours contemplating our options. No matter what, I still have to finish my college course in 6 months and get my license. But after that we have plans to get out of here and move to the south. A goal I've had for a loooooooong time anyways.


I also had this drunk epiphany last night that could probably be true.
All these years, my fear of driving that was causing me anxiety/panic attacks, could be related to the overall anxiety I suffer from growing up in a weird household. One minute everything's fine and I forget why I think they're crazy, the next they snap again and its like whiplash mental abuse. They make me feel insane.
My only escape was to drive. But that created this grand fear of failure. I wasn't provided lessons of any sort, my parents refused to teach me or put me in driving schools. I had no help starting in life at all. Any time I had the option to get out of their home if only I could just drive, I'd end up with my typical panic attacks and get into an accident. My plans would crumble and I'd be useless.
I hope that I've come to the end of this cycle. I've improved more than ever.
And now if I am more aware of why I'm so scared of driving, that really its a fear of failure and being stuck in this home forever. Maybe I can find myself to fully overcome it.

@kozi:
Thanks, yeah that's in my plans. Just grinning and bearing it as much as I can. Saving money and trying to make it to the end of my course.
Unfortunately their behaviors are why I've struggled to maintain healthy weight and eating habits (as in, eating at all) for the majority of my life. This time its "you have to eat with us even if you might be infected", last time it was "you're not allowed to use OUR kitchen at all cause I said so". Every time it is just different, but all the same "don't touch my home, don't exist" kind of logic.

Eventually they might forget about it and things return to normal. But then it can spring up at ANY given moment. Or it could be something unrelated to food. Basically, they can't be happy if they aren't harassing someone within the week.

@totalanimefan:
@lucifera:
I will make sure I don't starve at least. I did sneak food earlier today before all this and around midnight last night. I masked my lunch-cooking noises by doing the dishes at the same time. I do have them being hard-of-hearing on my side also. It is just frustrating and heartbreaking when they get so extreme about it. They get so personal and say really horrible things to me. I suffer a lot of anxiety over the years of their abusive behaviors. But yeah, here in the US, no one cares beyond saying "Sorry you have to deal with that. Maybe just dont"

The real problem I deal with is that I live in northern CO. It is incredibly expensive here and only recently, I was able to beat my anxiety enough to be able to drive without massive panic attacks. My bf and coworkers have been so helpful in rooting me on to succeed at that. So then I immediately joined a short-term college course (13 month) so I can get something useful under my belt and then I can finally book it into any direction. I only have about 6 months left to graduate, then I just need to take some big ol' test right after, and then I can qualify to work in most states as a massage therapist. Almost all states if I just take 1-2 additional classes.

I already tried moving into my bf's mom's house before when she was renting out her basement. I was making more money then, before my hours got cut this year, so we could afford it on both our wages. But she started acting strangely and then she kicked us out, saying she was selling the house. She was getting a divorce so we thought she needed space anyway. Then immediately after words, she got a new bf, said she wasn't selling the house but wont rent out anymore cause... well, she has a sugar daddy now. She didn't put it that way but that's what's up.

Basically, I don't want to rely on people anymore, cause I always end up with the carpet being pulled from under me. I've moved out a few times and people always end up selling their home, having a divorce, or something like that and I have to come back to my parents. I just need to find a way to endure this home until I don't have to anymore.

Started as a small vent in another thread cause I didn't think it'd blow up this much.
My mom, out of nowhere, decides no one is allowed to eat unless they do so with the family, at the table.
Okay, weird since we're all grown ass adults on different schedules, but whatever.

Except that I'm supposed to be in self quarantine right now since there are 2 confirmed cases among my coworker/friends. One of which we know for a fact my bf was at work with recently before they found out.

I've mentioned this to some of you before but, I literally cannot risk my family getting sick with this virus. They make fun of me and act like I'm some crazy extremist, even while they literally have a PHYSICAL LETTER in their hands, from my little sister's doctor saying that if she contracts this, she WILL die. No if's or maybe's.
My parents lie all day about their own health as well. They wont even tell me what their doctors say. My dad had a seizure two weeks ago and they say he's the healthiest man ever. Bullshit.

So what if I'm a bit paranoid about breathing risks across a dinner table to 3 people who would suffer way more than I would if I caught it.
But when I ask why the sudden rules, did something happen ect. my mom absolutely lost her shit at me and my dad threatened to kick me out if I don't shut up and just obey. Said they're just waiting for me to move out and idk where this is coming from, I haven't done anything to piss them off? There has been no fights, no issues to my knowledge. I guess its just that time of year to get sick of my existence again. I guess they did try to kick me out last year too, just cause I'm "too old". It was the week of my birthday, go figure.

I'd love to move out but frankly, I can't. There's a reason I moved back in in the first place, and it wasn't out of choice.
But now I'm probably going to end up relapsing into anorexia again cause I'm not allowed to eat at all. They've put a full ban on me eating after they've gone to bed too. They're being VERY thorough about this and it's so abnormal. It's so controlling that even if I wasn't in quarantine, my instinct is to just say no, stop being ridiculous. Any time I eat at the table with them, I get harassed anyways. So I stopped doing that way back in highschool. I'm 28 now and still didn't even eat at tables when I DID live in my own place Dx

@kwisshiie:
I also miss tropics, since I'm from florida. But I miss winter weather too so there's really no pleasing me :vanora_xd:
Can I have snow-cold air AND stand on a beach pls

@kwisshiie:
I.. kind of want your weather again. I miss winter temperatures already. Wanna trade? :vanora_xd:

Here's a Howl's Moving Castle set of designs
I really like them <3

Lets use this thread as an archive of design codes for Animal Crossing New Horizons!
I'm fairly certain that enough of us on here are playing this game for this to be useful lol

RULES
- If it is not a code that you created, please post it as a link to where you got it from so that the original creator can receive the proper attention for it!
Example: This code
Example 2:

Example of how NOT to post these codes:

This just seems unfair to the artist's original post, so don't do this! We want to support them with clicks, likes and follows~
Of course, if it is your own creation, you can post it however you want to. Just make sure to SAY that it belongs to you so there's no confusion.


This is to avoid stepping on any toes ^^

This one is soooooo cute <3
https://picrew.me/image_maker/277578

@fozzy:
I seem to be the only one who's classes haven't been cancelled. And you know what I'm studying? Massage therapy. Totally makes sense to learn how to massage someone at home where I'm legally not permitted to practice massages for multiple reasons :vanora_worried:
It sucks, but I think its cause my school is a TINY local school that was already desperate for funds before all this hit.

Bills vs virus is the real dilemma a lot of people are facing. I'm so grateful my job offered me to work overnights, which didn't used to exist. Just for extra precaution since most of my household isn't healthy enough to handle this thing.

Was banned from eating yesterday because suddenly my mom decides that the family is only allowed to eat, if we eat at the table like a family.
I
AM
IN
QUARANTINE
:vanora_cry:
There are 2 confirmed cases at my job, and we KNOW my bf had worked with one of them two days before they knew. And we literally got a doctor's message this past week saying if my sister (whom we live with) catches this she'll die. My bf went down to eat with them anyways!!!
I was so mad (still am obv), like, my meal is not more important than her health. Call me extremist but??? Would you risk that?
Why am I being treated like a disobedient child over just being cautious? And why NOW do they decide to be anal about where I eat? I've eaten in my room my whole life, even when I had my own home with my own dining table. I only had one for visitors or super messy dishes!

I'm so frustrated cause this problem is carrying on until today still. I ended up having to sneak in the middle of the night to eat something. But she also says I'm "not allowed" to eat after she's gone to bed?????? So I have to sneak in order to eat at all, or sit at a small table and breathe risk all over the 3 people who would probably all die from this stupid pandemic. Not one of them is healthy in the least.

@fozzy:
I was going strong the first two weeks of self quarantine. Sketched nearly an entire comic chapter in 2 days, finished several RLC orders and passed 3 class finals. And I showered daily.
Now?
animal crossing is what I count as productive, since I'm even too lazy to do that some moments loll

The sun has started this new thing where it'll find my eyes at like, 7 or 8am
I'll go to slightly open my eyes as it wakes me and its like