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Posted in I'M SCREAMING!!! :D
Posted 7 years ago
Congratulations and well done! Such a glorious feeling when you accomplish something great like that on your own. c: Bask in the spoils of your hard work!
Posted in Cancelled
Posted 7 years ago
@Lady Luna: I bid 5,400 
!! <3
!! <3
Posted in THE · NOSTROMO
Posted 7 years ago
@Queen Prisma: I got my chestburster on ThinkGeek, they're currently on sale for $20! In case you want to put a bug in your boyfriend's ear lol and yes, you'll have to show me your xeno plush! I'll definitely take a snapshot of the skirt once I get some batteries for the lights (they weren't included, how lame is that lol).
That's good, I've pretty much been doing the same, gaming and working on some coding and writing here and there. Also trying to study back-end code but I almost feel aimless. c':
That's good, I've pretty much been doing the same, gaming and working on some coding and writing here and there. Also trying to study back-end code but I almost feel aimless. c':
Posted in This is slightly bothering me (not a serious rant)
Posted 7 years ago
@Queen Prisma: Ah, I see it now! Alas, I don't recognise the art or anything. They're probably on DeviantArt, though, so depending on how far you want to go, you could open up a thread over on DA asking if anyone recognises it.
Some people are just despicable. >:C
Some people are just despicable. >:C
Posted in Jealousy
Posted 7 years ago
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So, this is partly a request for some input, and partly just me trying to get this down and make sense of my emotions.
A bit of backstory: my bf has a friend, we'll call him G, whom he's known since middle school. My bf and I have been together for over 4 years (almost 5), and up until recently, I met his friend G all of maybe twice. My bf was always begging G to hang out, go ride dirtbikes, etc etc but G was always too busy or would simply never come around. (He came to our place once, and we went to his place once).
Fast forward to a couple months ago. G's baby mama leaves him and takes their kid. He becomes depressed and lonely, and suddenly wants to hang out with my bf all the time. All the time. Often three or four days a week, back to back. Mind you this was someone my bf couldn't BEG to come out to hang out with him. (I guess part of the problem was that G's baby mama was very controlling and wouldn't let him hang out--red flag, sounds like a total b*tch and you'd think G would be better off but apparently not). It's like they can't get enough of each other. So they go and do their thing, whatever. At first I was like, "okay, I can deal". I'm glad my bf has friends he can go hang out with.
But it's getting to the point where I'm feeling left out / pushed back. Bf says he's going to G's mom's place, but they almost always end up going out to a bar, and often staying out late--my bf didn't get home until after 1 AM last week. G had the NERVE to take my bf to a cabaret a few weeks ago, and I was absolutely LIVID that he would do that. I mean how would my bf feel if I went to Chippendale's with my friend? I appreciated his honesty, and thanked him for telling me but also kind of wished that he hadn't.
Meanwhile, I'm sitting at home, alone, bored out of my mind, worried that my bf is surrounded by and flirting with a bunch of women, and who knows what else trouble he'd get into. "I promise I won't be gone all day, I promise." I know better than to believe that, but can't stop myself from staring at the clock hoping he'll come home soon, and my heart always sinks when the clock hits 10 or 11 PM and he's still not home.
So I told him that I was feeling left out; I told him straight up that I was getting jealous that he was kind of spending more time with his friend than me, going out and having all sorts of fun while I'm alone. He says, "what do we do on your days off?" So I answer: We go grocery shopping, after which we usually go get some lunch at our favourite Thai place, and then come home and sit at home for two days. He says "exactly!" as if that's the same as going out and partying and having a bunch of fun. News flash: grocery shopping is a weekly chore, not a date night. Lunch or not, it's just not the same. He says it's my fault that we never do anything together because "you don't ever want to do the stuff I do", and I'm like "why don't we do something everyone can enjoy?" I wish we shared more interests--he's outdoorsy and loves doing things like shooting guns and riding dirtbikes, and I'd love to do things with him that make him happy, that's just not my interest. I don't like guns, and I'd kill myself on a dirtbike. xD And I don't expect him to change his life or interests for me, but if we could just meet in the middle, idk...I feel like I'm always the one relenting, always the one giving in.
The icing on the cake was when, about a month ago, I went to hang out with a friend I hadn't seen in years. My bf got angry that I didn't invite him (which I can understand, he DOES often invite me to go out shooting and stuff), but honestly I didn't think he'd want to go since it was just going to be my girl friend and I talking about girl things, and I was gone for all of 3-4 hours. It was just supposed to be the two of us catching up.
So I guess to "get back at me" he goes out with G, and is still gone when I get home. When he gets home, he starts throwing a fit about how I went out and didn't even invite him; goes on to say how he doesn't trust me, and that he FOLLOWED ME TO THE BAR WE WENT TO AND WAS SPYING ON US. I was speechless. (He later told me that was a lie, but still, wtf!?!?) To hear that he didn't trust me really, seriously fxcking hurt.
I got a skirt in the mail yesterday that has the Milky Way printed on it, and lights up. Bf says, "are you gonna wear that when you go clubbing?" and I said something along the lines of, "I never go clubbing, I never go anywhere". To which he responds, "You never want to go anywhere or do anything. All we do is sit at home [on your days off]." Um, excuse me, you never ASK me if I want to go anywhere, you never invite me out on dates unless I mention it first, and I never ask to go out to places because you supposedly HATE bars and being around a bunch of people...
...unless he's with his friend G, of course. He got kicked out of two sports bars in one night, came home late (that was the day he promised not to be gone all day and night), and when I expressed how I was upset, he went on to say "well, it was miserable, if that makes you feel any better. It really wasn't fun." Okay, it wasn't fun... but you would still rather do that, than come home and be with me. Okay... definitely doesn't make me feel better. But then he tries to say they never plan to go to bars, "it's only a spur of the moment thing", but they do it pretty much every time they hang out at G's mom's or dad's... so I know that's BS.
I want him to have friends, and I want to him to hang out and have fun with them; I don't want him to think he's "not allowed", but it's becoming such a drag that I'm just constantly being left out. I want to do those things with him. I want to share those memories. I don't expect to go to every function or outing or hangout session, either, but at least once in a while would be nice. It sucks when I'm sitting there listening to them talk about all the crazy stuff that happened, all the fun they had, and just being like "yeah sounds like it was fun, glad you guys enjoyed yourselves while I was sitting here with my thumb up my ass." It makes me feel like he's getting bored of me, or like I'm holding him back.
And I know part of it is my own problem. I have no friends out here (aside from work friends) and tend to blow off my old friends who live in town, so I depend on my bf for all my socialisation; therefore if he's not around, I have nobody but the dogs. I know I need to get out more and hang out with my friends and just try to keep myself occupied, but it's hard with ADHD brain. But at the same time it hurts me that he's so dismissive. He'll try and make it up to me by taking me out for dinner or something, but he never does it of his own volition--it's only after I say something that he makes the effort.
TL;DR I'm trying to deal with my emotions and need to spend more time with my friends. I know I'm being kind of petty and definitely jealous. Does anybody have any tips, mind tricks, techniques, etc for getting your brain to chill tf out?
P.S. if you made it through that whole wall of text you deserve a
!! ♥
A bit of backstory: my bf has a friend, we'll call him G, whom he's known since middle school. My bf and I have been together for over 4 years (almost 5), and up until recently, I met his friend G all of maybe twice. My bf was always begging G to hang out, go ride dirtbikes, etc etc but G was always too busy or would simply never come around. (He came to our place once, and we went to his place once).
Fast forward to a couple months ago. G's baby mama leaves him and takes their kid. He becomes depressed and lonely, and suddenly wants to hang out with my bf all the time. All the time. Often three or four days a week, back to back. Mind you this was someone my bf couldn't BEG to come out to hang out with him. (I guess part of the problem was that G's baby mama was very controlling and wouldn't let him hang out--red flag, sounds like a total b*tch and you'd think G would be better off but apparently not). It's like they can't get enough of each other. So they go and do their thing, whatever. At first I was like, "okay, I can deal". I'm glad my bf has friends he can go hang out with.
But it's getting to the point where I'm feeling left out / pushed back. Bf says he's going to G's mom's place, but they almost always end up going out to a bar, and often staying out late--my bf didn't get home until after 1 AM last week. G had the NERVE to take my bf to a cabaret a few weeks ago, and I was absolutely LIVID that he would do that. I mean how would my bf feel if I went to Chippendale's with my friend? I appreciated his honesty, and thanked him for telling me but also kind of wished that he hadn't.
Meanwhile, I'm sitting at home, alone, bored out of my mind, worried that my bf is surrounded by and flirting with a bunch of women, and who knows what else trouble he'd get into. "I promise I won't be gone all day, I promise." I know better than to believe that, but can't stop myself from staring at the clock hoping he'll come home soon, and my heart always sinks when the clock hits 10 or 11 PM and he's still not home.
So I told him that I was feeling left out; I told him straight up that I was getting jealous that he was kind of spending more time with his friend than me, going out and having all sorts of fun while I'm alone. He says, "what do we do on your days off?" So I answer: We go grocery shopping, after which we usually go get some lunch at our favourite Thai place, and then come home and sit at home for two days. He says "exactly!" as if that's the same as going out and partying and having a bunch of fun. News flash: grocery shopping is a weekly chore, not a date night. Lunch or not, it's just not the same. He says it's my fault that we never do anything together because "you don't ever want to do the stuff I do", and I'm like "why don't we do something everyone can enjoy?" I wish we shared more interests--he's outdoorsy and loves doing things like shooting guns and riding dirtbikes, and I'd love to do things with him that make him happy, that's just not my interest. I don't like guns, and I'd kill myself on a dirtbike. xD And I don't expect him to change his life or interests for me, but if we could just meet in the middle, idk...I feel like I'm always the one relenting, always the one giving in.
The icing on the cake was when, about a month ago, I went to hang out with a friend I hadn't seen in years. My bf got angry that I didn't invite him (which I can understand, he DOES often invite me to go out shooting and stuff), but honestly I didn't think he'd want to go since it was just going to be my girl friend and I talking about girl things, and I was gone for all of 3-4 hours. It was just supposed to be the two of us catching up.
So I guess to "get back at me" he goes out with G, and is still gone when I get home. When he gets home, he starts throwing a fit about how I went out and didn't even invite him; goes on to say how he doesn't trust me, and that he FOLLOWED ME TO THE BAR WE WENT TO AND WAS SPYING ON US. I was speechless. (He later told me that was a lie, but still, wtf!?!?) To hear that he didn't trust me really, seriously fxcking hurt.
I got a skirt in the mail yesterday that has the Milky Way printed on it, and lights up. Bf says, "are you gonna wear that when you go clubbing?" and I said something along the lines of, "I never go clubbing, I never go anywhere". To which he responds, "You never want to go anywhere or do anything. All we do is sit at home [on your days off]." Um, excuse me, you never ASK me if I want to go anywhere, you never invite me out on dates unless I mention it first, and I never ask to go out to places because you supposedly HATE bars and being around a bunch of people...
...unless he's with his friend G, of course. He got kicked out of two sports bars in one night, came home late (that was the day he promised not to be gone all day and night), and when I expressed how I was upset, he went on to say "well, it was miserable, if that makes you feel any better. It really wasn't fun." Okay, it wasn't fun... but you would still rather do that, than come home and be with me. Okay... definitely doesn't make me feel better. But then he tries to say they never plan to go to bars, "it's only a spur of the moment thing", but they do it pretty much every time they hang out at G's mom's or dad's... so I know that's BS.
I want him to have friends, and I want to him to hang out and have fun with them; I don't want him to think he's "not allowed", but it's becoming such a drag that I'm just constantly being left out. I want to do those things with him. I want to share those memories. I don't expect to go to every function or outing or hangout session, either, but at least once in a while would be nice. It sucks when I'm sitting there listening to them talk about all the crazy stuff that happened, all the fun they had, and just being like "yeah sounds like it was fun, glad you guys enjoyed yourselves while I was sitting here with my thumb up my ass." It makes me feel like he's getting bored of me, or like I'm holding him back.
And I know part of it is my own problem. I have no friends out here (aside from work friends) and tend to blow off my old friends who live in town, so I depend on my bf for all my socialisation; therefore if he's not around, I have nobody but the dogs. I know I need to get out more and hang out with my friends and just try to keep myself occupied, but it's hard with ADHD brain. But at the same time it hurts me that he's so dismissive. He'll try and make it up to me by taking me out for dinner or something, but he never does it of his own volition--it's only after I say something that he makes the effort.
TL;DR I'm trying to deal with my emotions and need to spend more time with my friends. I know I'm being kind of petty and definitely jealous. Does anybody have any tips, mind tricks, techniques, etc for getting your brain to chill tf out?
P.S. if you made it through that whole wall of text you deserve a
!! ♥
Posted in This is slightly bothering me (not a serious rant)
Posted 7 years ago
@Queen Prisma: Hmmm the link takes me to a page that says "forbidden" o:
It's a shame Google images wasn't able to pick it up, I was hoping it'd match right up with the original piece xD
It's a shame Google images wasn't able to pick it up, I was hoping it'd match right up with the original piece xD
Posted in Hope my parents aren't stupid
Posted 7 years ago
@vengeance: Ah, I can relate to that--I always feel bad leaving my dog alone. But they're much safer and better off at home, and I know when it's really hot here my dog would rather be in the AC anyway lol
I do hope your parents see the error in that thinking :/
I do hope your parents see the error in that thinking :/
Posted in Pine Trees and Shooting Stars
Posted 7 years ago
sO MANY RESERVATIONS
Posted in What are you playing?!
Posted 7 years ago
DESTINYYYYY 2 IS SO MUCH FUN I love it
I've been back on a Skyrim kick 8D finally patched my game and was able to install some mods, and holy heck they are small improvements but they make such a difference. Also got Survival Mode which is a nice challenge and refreshing change of pace!
I've been back on a Skyrim kick 8D finally patched my game and was able to install some mods, and holy heck they are small improvements but they make such a difference. Also got Survival Mode which is a nice challenge and refreshing change of pace!
Posted in THE · NOSTROMO
Posted 7 years ago
@Queen Prisma: it is adorable! I totally slept with it last night lol. I honestly didn't think it would be so big; I was going to put it next to my boyfriend when he was asleep but just couldn't wait to show him c': I also got a skirt that looks like the Milky Way and lights up!
How've you been? o:
How've you been? o:
Posted in Hope my parents aren't stupid
Posted 7 years ago
@vengeance: I would be fuming! Even in the shade she car will get hotter and the poor thing will be so uncomfortable! I hope your parents decide to leave the dog at home. Is it unable to be left alone?
Posted in This is slightly bothering me (not a serious rant)
Posted 7 years ago
@Queen Prisma: Gah that kind of stuff is infuriating! I mean do people really think nobody will ever find out?
Alas the image link is borken so I can't see it, but you might want to try a reverse image search on Google. O:
Alas the image link is borken so I can't see it, but you might want to try a reverse image search on Google. O:
Posted in THE · NOSTROMO
Posted 7 years ago
I am summoning this thread from the depths! The Nostromo has returned!
Also @Queen Prisma: check out this chestburster plush I got! It's huge!!!
Also @Queen Prisma: check out this chestburster plush I got! It's huge!!!
Posted in losing large amounts of weight
Posted 7 years ago
You're very brave for opening yourself up to everyone like this. I commend your proactivity! It's awesome that you're taking steps to better your physical health. No workout is too small, it's all progress! Congratulations, and good luck on your journey! You've got the right mindset to kick your goals in the butt! c:
P.S. diet is a large part of weight loss, but that doesn't mean you have to kick delicious foods to the curb. Try to eat lots of fruits, veggies and protein with little carbs.
P.S. diet is a large part of weight loss, but that doesn't mean you have to kick delicious foods to the curb. Try to eat lots of fruits, veggies and protein with little carbs.