Jolly's posts

@MaxIsConfused:
Maybe so, I do tend to binge my projects cause I only have 1 day to work on them.
I'm trying to work on building up some realistic goals for how to cut down my work schedule so I have a little bit more free time to balance with things I want to do, without cramming them in. It doesn't help that I'm impatient by nature so I don't pace my crafting very well XD

Usually coffee if it's a work day (so most days)
but on my days off I like to be a rebel and go straight for the caffeinated sodas >:]
im gonna die young i swear

@MaxIsConfused:
Oh gotcha
it isn't that bad then, I might get this way for about 3 weeks but then I'll flip and be ok for a couple weeks. kinda just flips and flops

I just hate when it flops super hard 😪
that lethargic feeling
blech

@Totalanimefan:
I think it bothers me most because all of my energy is spent on doing things I don't like to do. So I can't do the things I like to do as much. ;;


@Clementine:
I thought about switching my schedule, but thats real hard to get behind D:
Getting up any earlier than 7am is a horrendous thought lmao


@MaxIsConfused:
I appreciate everyone validating the same reasoning ;;
I always forget its really just a major burnout rather than me not working hard enough. I definitely do not enjoy this executive dysfunction idea if that is what I deal with, cause it is so much more rewarding to get things done!


I gotta find a new balance I suppose! I'm so bad at set routines cause I'm like, naturally inconsistent XD
cant do the same thing at the same time every day/week or I go mad

One example like
Im home from work today because I got real sick from a sinus infection bordering on an acute bronchitis kind of thing (allergies, happened the same time last year too)
I decided to rest
so I lay on the sofa like, all day.
tried playing games and then decided ah this game might be too strenuous, so I watched things instead.
I'm not good at just sitting still doing nothing. Which is what you're supposed to do lol

I thought "this doesn't feel good, my brain is becoming mush. Even if my body is becoming more stable.
I should read my books that I've pushed off for so long"

This way my brain can feel better and my body still rests.


... I didn't do it tho
WHY DIDN'T I READ MY BOOKS
I just flat out immediately forgot as soon as I thought about it ????

I used to be real good at just telling myself "Do it and do it now or it wont get done" and that was enough! No matter how much I didnt wanna, I would just huff, get up, and do it. Whether thats drawing, working out, going on a walk, chores, cooking, ect. I used to be great at "just do it".
If there was an idea I had, a project I wanted to do, something like that. I'd just GO FOR IT.

WHAT HAPPENED

I realize how lazy I've become. I blame a lot of it on my job, since I do spend the majority of my time there, and there's a lot of sitting involved. I sit more than I've ever sat before, I swear. And I get so caught up in these depressive cycles from a lot of the stress from work and the corruption of the cult company that I work for. The 11+ hour shifts get to me more than anything, so by the time I get home my soul just feels so empty. Even if depression is due to a displeasure in my career, its not helped when I cant get off my arse when I'm at home either cause I couldn't shake off the work week. I've become a sloth! When I need to clean I just sit there and push it off. Thats never been me before, not to this extent where I seem to just sit there :vanora_upsidedown:
If I ever pushed something off in the past it was cause I was DOING something and I didn't wanna stop DOING. Now its just cause I can't motivate myself to get up.

I've been trying to find a different job all year, but there's really nothing out there for me that I could pay my bills with. That and after watching my husband's experience (particularly in this area) when he was job hunting, MOST interviews lied to him about hours, position and wage. He would be promised a livable wage at full time but end up being scheduled only 8-15 hours a week, getting paid in dirt. One actually tried to make him work during the interview, unpaid! If I try to switch careers and that happened to me, we'd lose our home.

I think the realization that I'm stuck in something that is consuming me so badly is really getting to me. I feel like I can't live. But I wanna do so much more outside this job!
I need to learn how to at least enjoy my weekends when I'm not at work! Or figure out how to use my 1-2 days of free time each week to be more productive towards either my hobbies or my future, or both.


Anyway, how to stop being a potato 101
lets talk about it :vanora_xd:

Also adding
as I start to make stuff, I'm 100% gonna be sharing some of it in my projects thread in my signature!
c:

@Ruby:
Ooooh, that may well be an investment Ill add to my list!

@Totalanimefan:
I MEAN
I was already thinking about getting one for almost two years now
but your crafts definitely encouraged me XD
so cute

Also I did order one >>
for pickup
sending husband to get it on his way home from work

@Ruby:
Yeah I havent looked into them in about a decade, so Im sure its way different now.
I'd probably want to have a full craft room before I get TOO many machines anyway ;; I dont really have a designated place even for a cricut I'd make it work. But then again, maybe printers aren't as huge as they used to be... for the good ones?

In any case I'm sure I could find a good print shop nearby :D
I haven't explored that yet here

@Ruby:
The only thing is, it doesn't print color? So I'd need a regular printer before I could make actual stickers.
The kinds that print digital colors good are 'spency

I think that I should start planning projects before I drop money on the machine itself
:vanora_sweat:
I always worry getting new things that I'll just make one thing and then it sits there. That's why I haven't bought it yet..

@Ruby:
Hahaha the dream of running a craft business and making a ton of cool things
but also not becoming a hoarder with big excuses :vanora_xd:

Imagining the things I could make with just the cricut though! It would be way fun

I WANT THIS






and more
and more and more
I want to make things and I wanna build on crafty skills
I WANT TO MAKE A CRAFT BUSINESS on the side and get better and better and then
maybe
one
day
I can stop working 11 hour retail shifts and instead work 11 hour crafting shifts
:vanora-celebrate:

Could this be an illness or could this be my moment?


Silliness aside, any of you use cricuts? Or silouett cameo is another one I heard of, but havent yet compared them.
the cricut maker 3 sounds like a blast to use.

The pens here are unrelated to cricut cause Im also wanting to learn how to make tiny clay confetti xD

Work in progress - First ever wreath! :D
I halted when it came to the last step cause I realize I dont know how to make nice bows. So once I master that, I'll be able to slap this onto my door!
I'll take a better photo at that point too without my legs involved XD
I literally just got home from work, plopped down and started at it on the floor

*edit update
Decided I'm too impatient to make nice bows, so calling this wreath done!

@Ruby:
Yeah as long as corporate guys dont walk in and catch me napping :vanora_xd:
But if they walk in and I'm laying on a mattress? They wouldn't mind as long as I say something funny (and if there's no customers needing service)

Gotta know what we're sellin ;D