Jolly's posts

@Totalanimefan:
Yeah I started to feel it a bit today when watching some news stuff on youtube. Guess there was a clip recorded of something and the woman started screaming and I honestly can't tell you what the story was about cause I just sorta shut down at the noise. Its all auditory for me. It also helps that my bird will demand attention when he knows someone's upset. He's a crazy little budgie but he's real smart Lol

Yeah, there's that and also people are moving to states that have dropped mask mandates, which is so crazy to me.
also I LOVE WALKABLE PLACES! It feels sooooooo good to be able to just. walk. anywhere you need to go. I get so much more done that way cause I'll forever hate driving Lol I remember us both talking about how much cars suck, so I'm very happy for you that you dont have to worry about having one there. <3
I'm actually tossing a lot of my furniture for this move cause its really cheap, under $100 desk/tables that were meant to be throw aways once I leave colorado. I've had them for a couple years and they're already falling apart lmao
But this will make it a lot quicker, I have most other things packed already. My company's paying for my uhaul and also sending me a check to help cover my lease break, so things are going way smoother than I imagined. I have a lot more of my savings to keep or work with.

@MoodyB:
Thank you, I'm definitely certain I'll feel more at ease before long <3
Still want counseling of course. But it does help that my new job location has more people working there, so I'll never have shifts again where there's only me and one other on staff for 11 hours. There will always be safe people and safe numbers~

@Totalanimefan:
Thank you for the advice! I'll keep the thigh tapping thing in mind, it makes sense how that can help.
My triggers aren't frequent, but my partner knows what sounds will do it and he recognizes when my mind is bordering on a fit. He helps a lot by patting or rubbing my shoulder or knee (whatever's in reach) and talking to me. Maybe that's a similar thing.

But yes, I'm so excited to be where I want to be. I remember talking with you last year about things like this. I knew I'd get there eventually but I can't believe its officially official and I"ll really achieve it this year! Like, on the 25th of this month exactly. It feels unreal.
Its also crazy to me that my partner has wanted this for longer than I have, so I have the perfect person to go on these adventures with. We enjoy long car rides together so even though a 14 hour drive down there is a bit daunting, we're excited for that too.

I'll try to be better at updating :'D

@kozi:
Oh geez, I'm sorry that you can relate to it too. It really is hard, I do still get flash backs to it sometimes. I'm fortunate that most moments my memory recollection is too foggy and I can focus on my life more.

I've already met my new store manager over the phone and my regional manager for down there--they're very very sweet and supportive. My company doesn't normally offer financial help with moving unless you promote, but they've made an exception for this. It covers my lease break, which has also been very generous because my landlady is supporting me too.

My partner's apartment is throwing him and his room mates out at the same time as this move, because they changed the signup dates (student apartments suck a lot) and were basically like "maybe you didn't know that but too bad, we already booked new tenants in your rooms anyways so get out"
It kind of feels like this move is really meant to happen for a reason

GUYS
I have so much to say
I think the last time I was on here, was during holiday season when I was getting a new job and stuff?
Massage Therapy flopped very hard and I was at my lowest point in finances and mental health, then I stumbled into a job as a sales person with a company that takes very good care of their employees. Well this rollercoaster is still runnin~

Financially stable and independent again, my partner and I were like, SWEET
The last 6 months have been good for us

but somewhere we still weren't happy. Neither of us like where we live, so even though we're making the most of it and enjoying the great positives, there was still that deep down sense of "where do we belong tho?"

We always talked about leaving this state, but as a plan for later, when he finishes his current college course.



I'm still battling with ptsd from this, my manager and I both.
There's a lot of craziness where I live, and I've always always wanted to leave. In light of everything my company has reached out to me, and they're helping me to relocate across the country, where I want to live anyway. My partner is coming with, since there are more opportunities for him too and his course will be way better if he transfers colleges there.
He's struggled with the realization that you can lose the person you love at any moment, and I know thats been hard for him. He tries not to vocalize it because he wants to be strong for me, but I'm definitely going to seek out counseling for us both once we settle in our new home in the south. To help with our paranoias and my ptsd. So we'll be fine.

This move has offered me the distraction I need to get better too. I've wanted this for a decade. I never wanted to move here at the start--but hey, I was just a kid back then. Now I'm able to do this all and its blowing my mind. Its like I'm fulfilling a dream and once i get there, I gotta work on creating new goals and dreams. It'll be fun to move forward.
As for my partner, when he realized how easily all of this fell into our laps when we decided to go, I've never seen him so excited about anything. Like, he's always easily excitable, but he hit a whole other level of "this is exactly where we belong"

I dont mean to weigh heavily on the one tragic thing--I really intended to come and say holy crap, this dream of mine is happening, and I'm so excited to get there in a week!

@Ruby:
not a bad day just boring xd
yeah im trying to do jigsaws while there's downtime at work. its tricky cause anytime i stop to play on my phone, my manager tries to tell me to work on something (unnecessarily, he kinda tries to find things) but he's literally playing phone games the whole time even when he has a customer lmaoo

I aint paid hourly so I'm gonna jigsaw when things arent happening 😆

@Totalanimefan:
yeah the pay is really good, and i get benefits! they kick in in about 50 more days

ALSO
I GOT HAT CAT
finally got an event item :'D

@Totalanimefan:
Yeah, 4 1/2 days, but weekends are mandatory so thats poo. Its not super strenuous cause I'm just selling mattresses, but its still hard to stay focused for 11 hours xD
Its because its not an hourly job so I get more chance to make a hefty commission if I'm there longer or something? That's the reason they keep saying anyway.

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My schedule has changed to 10-6 instead of 12-8
might be easier for me to do things after work than before work >>

ofc after training period ends, I'm learning that i actually expect 11 hour shifts. killme

@Totalanimefan:
thank you all the same i appreciate it

@Ruby:
I spent the whole shift writing down mattress specs, so it was interesting xd
and yeah i haven't gotten any items yet. just started posting yesterday

@prezial:
yeah i used to do that a lot xd
my boss sits and plays games on his phone for ages so I'll probably be fine to doodle on my ipad when there's no customers ovo

@Alethna:
well hello and welcome~