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After some USPS delays...
Here is the final result of all your ideas! I still need to make a pastel version xD its on the to do list I swear
The dark bits are darker than intended, but the colors are still there. The embers came out pretty vivid yellow (this photo makes them look more faded than they are)
That's what I get for not coloring in CMYK mode xD

But in the end, I like it!


Its on teepublic if you want one o vo
But my intention in this thread is just to show it off, not advertise. so don't take it that way pls, I make next to nothing from the sales

@0v7:
Yeah, I should probably look into that. xD
It'd be healthy to not have multiple heart attacks a week, I'm sure. BUT ALSO people can stop appearing around corners suddenly or standing on the other side of a door when I open it because I mean--this happens a lot :vanora_xd:

@0v7:
haha, you have a gift of awareness that I lack :vanora_xd:
well, not always. Just.. a lot of the time lmao

@0v7:
I blame it on my adhd 8D
I get hyper focused on anything I'm doing, or sometimes just my thoughts, and it tends to kinda shut down my peripheral vision/sounds
and then poof

but then like, even if I expect a sound, if its loud I'll jump anyways >>

@0v7:
Lmao yeah I tend to move around quietly, and I'm short, so people get startled by me too.
But I also startle very easily so it tends to go both ways. I've had a few instances at jobs where me and a coworker just AHH at each other in sync :vanora_xd:

:vanora_xd:
wheeze

So my front door doesn't have a peep hole
it has this window on the top part of the door that is my very non-discrete way of checking for persons.
But my height is just below the window so like... you don't see me comin' til my face pops up like HI
Usually I don't do this if I THINK there's a person standing there, so having this bearded man staring directly back at me gave us both such a startle

I laughed, apologized and thanked him. he didn't react much, went on his way down the front steps.
Turns the corner of my house
AND MY DAD IS STANDING RIGHT THERE
startles this man AGAIN

I'm so sorry sir my family is just like this :vanora_xd:

Thank you <33

still waiting for it to arrive ;v; still excited

@kitalpha hart:
Yes it is, I just have a few weeks left of classes and we'll be focused more on massage stuff and studying for the finals.
But usually the finals are similar enough to the midterms, that I don't get too anxious about them

@kitalpha hart:
I know, I just hadn't had enough time, and the way the school schedules played out was lame
But I'm taking care of my career, which takes a heck of a lot of care for myself in the near future :D
sometimes gotta sacrifice a little!

My internship hours! Last I posted about em, I was all "yay got it all locked down in a schedule, gonna graduate on time!"
BUT I just looked and somehow I'm WAY AHEAD OF SCHEDULE?
181/186 hours DONE
35/40 clinic hours DONE, and these overlap so basically one more day at the clinic and I am 100000% DONE WITH ALL THESE HOURS
They don't sound like much but, for what I'm doing and the time frame, they are many ;3;

Its been so so hard to get to this point, I almost got sick from just the sheer fatigue of constantly working.
And the days I wasted to people no-showing and then having to re-evaluate how to catch up, then I'd have to work even harder
And lose so much sleep
and I'm so tired, I've been getting so light headed and derpy
but I'll be done, and then I can focus solely on my classwork/homework, which isn't that much cause I finished all the big loads already.

This means I'll finally have half-days off (still no full days yet). Can finally rest, cook meals (eat more than once a day) and just BE ZEN for the rest of this month ;;


Thought I'd share my undying relief! You guys have kinda been with me throughout the hardest parts of this episode of my life.
The end is nigh! But the time for relaxation is finally right now

@creativitea:
Oh, yes, I relate to all but maybe 4 of these listed in the link you shared lol
Kind of interesting looking at that, there are some things I didn't even notice in myself until I thought about it. Like the facial tics. I like, constantly wiggle my nose, but never realized that was considered a tic. :vanora_xd: it just always wanna be wigglin'
and my mom thought I was schizophrenic when I was younger, I think that's why she had me tested in the first place. It all makes sense ahah

I'd love to read more from the resources you have <3
I know a lot about ADHD, being that I do definitely have that going on, and I also studied it a lot in one of my classes for a research paper.
So it'd be nice to learn about my other potential brain function

@koneko:
It was a really fun class for me. A lot of it seemed like common sense stuff, how to have manners and be respectful, but it still set a really positive and comforting tone :vanora_smile:

@creativitea:
yesss, exactly lol but the way you put it is a lot more comforting to hear, especially since its within context and respect. And understanding that autism is NOT a negative, and shouldn't be brought up in the same breath of calling someone negative or concerning.
I never realized that oversharing was part of that, but I also never studied into autism. I always blame adhd on everything xD but, only jokingly. It helps people to understand my brain a little bit since adhd is becoming more understood these days.

I've been curious to learn more but also have no plans on getting re-tested cause... $$ haha

@koneko:
Yeah! It might be more laid on in an ethics class, kind of like mine, since that's all about how to treat people and respect boundaries. Mine are often more physical related and about professional touch also, since I would never be talking like a psychiatrist. Sharing my skill with a partner or something like that can create an opening for being taken advantage of, manipulated, or receive certain criticisms that would cut more deeply because its someone closer to you.

I feel much better now you guys ;3;
This chat helped, and my best friend also just came online and ksdhgdks he knows me better than anyone (10+ years), so when he says I have nothing to worry about, it is a really helpful reassurance